Remember When We Were Young And Everything Seemed So Beautiful?

This really frustrates me.
Firstly, I have lost all interest in studying.  I feel there's something I should do, and I don't know what, that makes me feel restless.
And secondly, my head is a mess. If you accidentally fall into it, I'm warning you there's gonna be major confusion and somehow you're gonna end up schizophrenic. I'm serious.
And, you, please please please can't you see how it's embarrassing you?? The entire thing! And that's what I've been trying to say, because, I care. The whole thing, it totally doesn't sound like you. It only makes you sound stupid and dumb and LAME. Please, your image is something that shouldn't be jeopardised and forfeited in the name of life and fun. If you ask me, and what I really think: They are stupid. Everything is. So LOA. Get it? It's so not you! You said I can lay anything on you, and then when I said it, it's all, say what you like, I have my own brain., remember that. And those stuff said, or in this case posted, it's like, come on, so not you! I'm trying t tell you that, please, make some effort to be a better person. But now that you've got them, guess you don't need me. I wasn't a walking and talking rock all this while you know. I'm capable of emotions, and thinking, but you'll never see. When I look all that, it's like, are you kidding me? Whyyy? You think what other people thinks is so beyond you and you don't give a damn, that's what the world can say, but I say it's wrong. I don't know why am I still risking all this. But they say, "Once in, no way back." Yeah, practically I'm stuck. Because I feel, I'm no longer filling up the spot I used to. Funny, I was the one being overly concerned about what happened yesterday, but somehow, you manage to tell someone else, and they made a joke out of it! Did you see the difference in advice? The concern vs the joke. And I was being genuine. But like you cared? You didn't give a damn. And you don't know how much it hurt me.

I have always the word Lady Gaga made a trademark of, "Born This Way" is brillliant. Of course it's not her word to flaunt but the message within the song is amazing.
" I'm beautiful in my way, cause God make no mistakes, I'm on the right track, baby, I was born this way.."
That was it. So practically, I would like to add, we have no right whatsoever to judge anyone and pushing them into a prison of this judgement. So WHAT if the person is in that way? AS LONG IT DOESN'T BOTHER YOU, DOESN'T HURT YOU. I know a person who DOES distract and annoy, and how my classmates have always ridicule and annoy her behind her back, but that is not what I would call sinful. Because, it's like she asks for it. She wants attention, and she gets it. SO yeah. But today, I came across a different scenario, and I felt bad for the person. Because, in this case, the person wasn't bothering anyone, the person was just being the person. Born that way. And there's nothing the person could do to change it. And I tell you, the person happen to be a very nice person, so being in that situation is shocking. Somehow I suspect the person happen to found out about it, and do you know honestly how is that gonna affect the person? It's the person's attitude and essence, and I tell you, it's not a bad thing at all. Why should we judge the person, and discriminate the person in that way? This is a form of passive bullying. It's would cause terrible damage to the person's ego and will in the person, and it's gonna be bad. Seriously, do you think YOU are perfect? No two person are ever the same this world, they are special in their own way, as long as they are being themself. And this person, is being the person's self, despite not fitting in, the person has a life. I'm not trying to make anyone feel bad here, I'm telling the truth, because bullying and self-pride is a topic I am very familiar with. Because I know people who have experienced them, and it's never a good thing, and I learn from their experiences. You wouldn't want to be in the person's shoes. If you know Demi Lovato's story, you will know what I mean. Always try to make a person smile, try not to hurt them, and always lend an helping hand to those who need, even if you hardly know them. SO WHAT IF YOU ARE NOT THE GREATEST FRIENDS WITH THEM? Is it BAD being nice to people you don't know? It's  not gonna kill you. It's part of the reason why these days I'm not happy sitting in classroom 3.18. But when I step out, there's so many nice people around me. I must say there's a reason why Krish, is the student council president. SHE' s one example of  a person with real virtues, helping those who needs, even if she hardly knows them. Life is not all about fun, and being happily normal, and sucking the life out of weirdos who doesn't fit in. Open your eyes and see.
Don't ever judge anyone. You don't know what's their story and what's really going on. A smile can hide so much.

There's A Reason Why She's Left In Your Past, And Not Your Present, So Let Go, Will You?

Once again, FAAAAANTASTIC job done, love.:)

Sometimes, I don't understand what could be going on in someone's mind. Take for instance, this guy in my college, he is really predictable. His mood, his logic, and everything else. And suddenly, you know, he turns, "unpredictable." And whatever he says, thinks, is completely contradicting. Like where is the tail to the head? Err, if you WANT the person to know what you want to let know, then just let it out! He forgives the person who started it, and yet he's being cold to me. Yo, I have a heart and a head with a brain which is still functionable to you know! Hahah. Ah, I don't know lah. Dah lah sejak kebelakangan ini stress dalaman aku tinggi giler. LOL.
Today, I think I hit my brother too hard, or he's a rock, cause it was so bad that I suffered internal bleeding in my one of my finger. And Brandon says I need to press it to remove the clot. He did. I suffered. AND YOU KNOW WHAT? The pain receded. Is it illusion or what? At first I didn't believe it, REFUSED to believe it, but ahh, I can't evade the truth. Still, it was painful!
Mr Rajah was in suchaaaa good mood today, he actually shared something from his past. Must be the Jovan-magic. Again. Oh well.
I sense some changes in PM12. I don't know what, but maybe it's because of the new classroom. It's all arranged in high-school class-y way, and there's not much communication I guess. I don't know, maybe I don't communication. God knows. And somehow I feel like I'm hanging out (with the exception of Ray, Wei, James, and Shaun, who is constantly bugging me to join the choir audition, and he is COMPLETELY out of his mind, I CAN'T SING, SHAUN!, Not in public anyway..),  with PM13 and PM10 students more. Because of our classrooms right next to each other. Like Vincent, Elaine, Brian Teoh(Seriously, I'm doing him a BIG favour now by helping him to escape Pravindra's murder wrath), Bryan Ong, Kern Yen and Krish(whom I just got to know today, and she's really nice, and she seems normal and awesome enough for a Student Council President.) Why oh why? Oh, and I think I'm less "clamed up" when speaking to Brandon Loo these days, as he had put in earlier.. LOL. But seriously, I am not comfortable in class these days. Bangs head against wall.

Some words are jinxed. I got into trouble for those words before, and now, I can't even say them. WTH.

He told me a story, and I'm afraid what if that's what we will be.


Seriously, I want to have you all by myself, just to prevent them from influencing you, those lack of attention sudden-comers. And no I'm not selfish. It's for the better future of the world.

Seriously, I was uncomfortable when I start seeing to much of them recently. I ignored. And suddenly, it has became too much. How ridiculous. You know Lame with a capital L? Yeah, that's them. And you actually ENTERTAINED them? Are you blind, deaf or dumb? Ugh. Open you're eyes and look twelve o' clock, straight on! I wish I wish I wish I can knock sense into you. Wake up, you!\

" You want somebody, just anybody, to lay their hands on your soul tonight. You want a reason, to keep believing, that some day you're gonna see the light."

You Got That Smile, That Only Heaven Can Make

TOO MANY BROMANCING. What's is BECOMING of this world today?? Life is SO unpredictable. But oh well, bless those people in love. I know Shawn Ng Weng Ming is. Don't worry Ming, I know what's going on. LOL.
I can't wait for the Holidays!
And inside I'm a mess.

Such innocence.

And yesterday, I made my best friend, who seems to be on a love-philosophy frenzy these days, to do something for me. He says he's doing a charity for the needy, for those who can't express their love. I'm not sure whether it's the entire truth, because it's possible that Mr. Philosopher might be in love himself. Ahhh, I'm dying to know! LOL. But he has been resilient, still I'm gonna get it out of him. LOL. Never say never.:D

So, yesterday, I made him do a quote about the stars, because as you know, or maybe not, I'm so in loveeee with them. They are like, the MOST beautiful thing, the world can offer.:D It was something like this:

"Peeking at the stars, seeing how they twinkle and brighten up the black skies, make our hearts glow and illuminates our path into forever and beyond, baby." (Though peeking should have been staring or gazing)

It's reaaaaallly good! My awesome friend. God bless him. And whoever he's in love with. LOL. I swear he's gonna kill me when he reads this.XD

When life feels magical, you feel enlightened!=)

Happy Birthday, Lady Gaga!

I've finally accepted that you were born this way, and there's no reason to hate you.
And your new song, Born This Way? It's simply inspiring. Thank you for coming up with sucha awesome song.
And I recently found out that you are a really nice person, and the way you talk to Maria Aragon was unexpected. But I learnt not to judge a book by it's cover, and everyone is beautiful in their way.
And your support for Japan is, phenomenal, they do need your help.
And you are awesome. You know how to judge a talent, just like when you say, Justin Bieber is amazing as he is. Thank you, for being realistic.=)

Sometimes it intrigues me, what might be going on in your mind, I am so curious, at night I fall asleep thinking about it, thinking about something that might happen. Dreams might be bad illusion, but when I dream, it brings my perfect escapade. I'm scared it would end. I don't want it to. That is why I want time to be fast-forwarded, to see how far can I go. Because I never wanna let go, there's a dream I been chasing oh so badly for it to be reality.. I wanna prove them wrong, I wanna make you right. And then life gives a rude awakening and says, " Sorry honey, it's not all that easy. Everything has a price to pay.." I give up. But then you came back. Then I know, it's hard to let go. If it would not last, then why did I come across it in the first place? Everything has a reason. But I don't know what.

Haha! The world is beaaaaaautiful! 

He Burned The Pirelli Tires And Gave Me Hope

I AM SO PROUD OF Lewis Hamilton today!
He is AMAAAAZING.
For those who do not know him:
He's a racer in Formula One. I'm sureee you guys KNOW what F1 is right? LOL.
Yeah, Lewis Hamilton, is a racer in the team Mclaren. And he has always been a real champion ever since he made his debut in the sport, in 2007.
In 2007, he was the first-runner up, the year of his debut, AND he almost won. He lost out, by a SINGLE point. That was how close he came to.
In 2008, HE WAS THE CHAMPION! He became the YOUNGEST champion in the sport! I was ECSTATIC. Despite my PMR that year, I did not missed a single race that year, except for the LAST one, the race which decided the crown, unfortunately for me, that I compensated it by watch the repeat several times, in the same day.
In 2009, it was a terrible terrible year for the Mclaren team. Their car, the MP4-24 SUCKED. It can barely race. AND YET, my amazing hero, Lewis Hamilton, managed to grab TWO and almost a third if it weren't for a faulty brake system of titles that year. A sucky car, but a true champion, and baby, you get an outstanding result.:D
In 2010, he was LEADING the championship for MOST part of the year. But luck left him. Just when everyone BELIEVED he would take the chequered flag of the year, he suddenly had THREE DNFs'(Did Not Finishes) almost-consecutively. As in, he crash out in the last race before summer break, and after break he immediately won the first race after summer break, and then crash out in the next two. And two of those races: IT WASN'T EVEN HIS FAULT. God. It was so heartbreaking last year, I cried. And of course, as if the bad luck wasn't enough? The eventual winner was Sebastian Vettel, who took the YOUNGEST CHAMP crown from him. Sucks. And even more sucky is the fact that Sebastian Vettel happen to be Pravindra Kumar's favourite. THANK GOD Spain beat Germany in the World Cup semis, or else I wouldn't forgive myself.
And THIS YEAR, Lewis Carl Davidson Hamilton, despite a not so good car AGAIN, He scored SECOND place! I mean, it wasn't first yes, but I didn't even expected that out of him. Cause firstly, the Mclaren car, suck so much during winter testing. It was one of the worst cars. I was so afraid there's gonna be a repeat of the 2009 edition. But the team is AWESOME. They pull through only upon arriving in Melbourne, which is a MIRACLE, to give a good-enough car, even though the car still has problems. AND Lewis Hamilton, maintain his gap upon Sebastian Vettel pretty well! He was seriously, phenomenal, despite Vettel's car is like super super fast! But towards the end however, Lew had to slow down thanks to a damage in his car. CAN YOU BELIEVE HE DROVE TO THE CHEQUERED FLAG WITH A DAMAGED CAR? I didn't. I was so freakin' afraid. And he did it. Like a real Champ would, He has always been my idol, and my dear friends from 5D, I bet you guys remember when I spoke about him when Pn Farina asked us about our idols.:D Because he inspires me in many ways. Despite the life at the speed lane, he reminds me SO many things about life. He also lives with a brother, who suffers from celebral palsy.
With Lewis, you know there's hope.

P.S- I seriously think Lewis Hamilton's girlfriend, Nicole Scherzinger, who is as awesome as he is, is not in good terms with Jenson Button's girlfriend, model Jessica Michibata. You will NEVER see them together, even when their boyfriends are racing in the same team and are both good friends. Why huh?

 And last two days... I heard something that made me go, " Oh My God, my boy has grown-up! Looks like I really have fallen in love.:) Ahhhh GOD.

Cause You're Amazing, Just The Way You Are

Some lyrics off famous hits have became trademarks of the artists, and it becomes widely used, inserted in sentences. But there are some lyrics, that really brings a deep meaning, a meaning which can make an impact. And one sentence I find particularly beautiful, is from Bruno Mars' Just The Way You Are: 'Cause You're Amazing, Just The Way You Are.' in the song, Bruno might have meant the lyrics to a girl, who is simply paranoid about how she looks, and the sentence is a line to convince her.
But in reality, it's an Amazing sentence. It not just meant for a paranoid lover, it's meant to everyone, because everyone is special in their own way. And Bruno Mars' meant it well.
Say it to a little girl who have bullied and traumatised by her classmate, just cause she's different.
Say it to a boy who didn't get the results he expected and is bitterly disappointed.
Say it to a student who is shy to make new friends because of how self-conscious she is.
Say it to a young man who feels lost in the world he expects to make a mark in.
Say it to an orphan who regrets his life due to the loss of his parents.
Say it to a child who is constantly scolded for not being smart as her siblings or cousins, who fails in her subject.
Say it a a teenager who is at total loss in making life-altering decisions.
Say it to a father who regrets not being able to provide more for his children.
Say it to a boy who suffers from celebral palsy and made fun at.
Say it to a boy who is always shadowed by his brothers success in life.
Say it, and say it convincingly, it will make a whole difference in a person's life. That's just the power behind those simple words.
Because Katy Perry have put in in Fireworks, "Don't you ever feel, like a wasted space, you're a original, cannot be replaced."
Lady Gaga have said it right:
"I'm beautiful in my way, cause God makes no mistakes, I'm on the right track, baby, I was born this way."
It's true, how you should love yourself as you are, be the real you. And the real you is not talking about hiding behind layers of make-up, puffs of foundation, thick mascara, and thinking people love watching you like that, yeah, making a fool of yourself. And laughing out loud in the class, when people are talking behind you back about how unpleasant you look. Or trying to grab the teachers' attention, manja-ing to them, in a way that makes you.. unpleasant. Because it all ain't real, it's faking it to fit in. And that's not just the way you are. Because we know when you are just the way you are, we will see a better you.
Sometimes I feel people these days don't give credit to the things that deserve it. Instead they prefer, anything cooler not genuine and deservable, they prefer a straight-on winner than a person who never stops trying, they prefer fake laughters than real smile, they prefer fame than talent. But can't they see how wrong their judgement can be? No, they are just too blinded.

I'm happy he was rewarded yesterday by people who still remembers what he has achieved in his life, because it ain't easy if you are Fernando Torres, now. He is one man who is amazing, just the way he is.

Lose One, Find Another.

I'm am still depressed over my results. No matter how much I TRY to convince myself that it's alright and the results are actually pretty good, I can't get over it. Because that's not me! Oh well. We shall try a different method to convince myself. Gahhhh. It's a so near, yet so far kinda situation. I might die of this depression. LOL.
EVERYONE around me has STRAIGHT As'. What kind of future doctor who doesn't scores well in her high school exam? Obviously not a very good one. I mean, I KNOW I'm not stupid, in fact, I'm pretty awesome. LOL. But looking at my result? Bangs head against wall. I'm not gonna survive. No, I WILL survive, because I'm Amazin'! Hahahaha. I know, I'm delusional. And I like it.

The CLASS behind the number 9:

Oh yeah! Maybe, just MAYBE, I'm not meant to get 10, because 9 is a very very special number.:D

The bright side behind the shadows of life.

Do you KNOW the power of number 9? Because it happens to be the MOST powerful number in existence.

And I got a B, and 9 As'. 1 and 9. As in 1 and 9 in my birthdate, 19. :D

To read the magic behind number 9, go here. 

http://ezinearticles.com/?The-Power-of-the-Number-Nine---Is-It-Just-Magic-Or-Is-It-Real&id=322023

I couldn't be bothered, because, for me, number speaks out FERNANDO TORRES and MY As' in SPM.

I know, I know, I'm totally whacked out. But I don't care. What's life without fun?

Thanks Weng Ming and Ray and Siew Ern for your ohhsome advices, I'm blessed to know people like you guys around me.

Oh well....

The dreams I've had and still have and will have. It's not wrong to dream big. 

If I were still this young and innocent.... There's alot of things I want to change. But hey, no use looking at the past.

I'm different in so many ways, but I know I'm mad too. But there's a bright side to the dark one.:D

Cause We Are Too Awesome, We Take The Back Seat This Time.

Yeahhhh! I'm a Firework.:)

Blogging time! That's one thing that will never change. LOL.
Anyway, I gotta take this opportunity to wish all my close friends who scored straight As a huge: CONGRATULATIONS GUYS! I am SO happy for you guys! It's incredible the number of them who scored this year. 10 As', 10As', 10As'! Everyone was so cheerful after results. But before that. It's like we were waiting for an impending Armageddon. LOL. Now thinking back, it all seemed a little comical. But well, it is a part of our life.
So wait, let me list down those who deserve the HUGE congratulations:
Rachel, Wei Wei, Yi Ni, Siew Ern, Thilagah, Kern Yen(The guy who will NEVER be satisfied with his results and makes me on the verge of strangling him to death) and Weng Ming.(He is suchhaaaaa alienated genius). I'm not sure about the rest: Yen Yen, Kern Yeung.....
And Amalinaaaaaa I AM so proud of you!
I, meanwhile am bitterly disappointed for not achieving what I want to. It's sorta unbelieveable when the sub I have always aced became my downfall.
And yeah, I was crying the ENTIRE day. Because, it's seemed kinda unfair for me, you know. Especially, when EVERYONE else has scored and I'm left in the blank. It all feels unreal. I mean, I was never like everyone else. I have so much a favourite things, communications have NEVER been an issue for me, I have done awesomely in so many competitions, in fact, I must say general knowledge have always been my forte, and pretty much I can be classified as a pelajar cemerlang(I might sound like I'm bragging, but I saying what I am) and all it takes is SPM result for the world to judge me as the person who would not fit in intelligence elite. Tomorrow everyone will be like, hey, I got straight As. But I'm left biting the dust.
Sadly. See how the world sees you? SPM results? A person's intelligence and respect given is not all due to studies, trust me. It never was. Three Idiots the movie put it all in. Everyone is so eager to be in a rat race, and see who's better than who, but exactly, who is willing to take a back seat and watch and learn. I did. Last year. I don't know how many people noticed, I am no longer the person who was always so excited in trying out stuffs, racing against odds, eagerness in proving. Instead I learnt new things, I saw the world in a different light than many people who are mundaned by reality. And yes, I'm serious. But it all doesn't matter a single bit now, doesn't? Because I didn't ace it, I'm sent out.
It's pretty sad, especially when comparisons begin. But, hello? I am not them. Seriously, can they communicate the way I have? Can they think in variety like the way I do? And see, because I see things differently, Thinking Skills have become a subject I love. Because I am constantly acing it. I learn from things I obsess on, and people will say, stop fantasizing. Oh ha ha, you might have those results, but look, it ain't gonna help you be awesome. I am, I know. Funnily I kept crying over a spilt milk,yeah, but that just got me stronger. I feel a little taller, because you see, I have a challenge to take. And that got me feeling excited. That's something watching sports have taught me. I'm a big dreamer anyway. I normally get what I want, but sometimes, we have our own hurdles. Like this one. And I don't think I should regret it one bit. In fact, believe me or not, I was thanking God over and over again, first for giving me the strength, second, because it could have been worst, and next because I got a B. At the rightful moment. Had I got a B in PMR, it would have made me stronger for Spm. And I would have aced it, and I would have let it go into my head, and I fail my LIFE'S test. But now I fail at the turning point of my life, and I WILL succeed in life. It's sorta ongoing process where everything is so predictable. Yeah sure, I wouldn't be getting what I could have had had I aced it, but then again, your entire mindset changes. Mr Subra, our class mentor had said, when you pass this time, you fail next time, when you fail this time, you pass next time. SO TRUE. Yes, I believe in that. And I don't regret myself one bit. Because I don't have too. Like Prawn say, WE SUCK, but WE ARE STILL AWESOME. And yeah, that's really true. Because, I'm not a bore like you people are, I'm special! My life has ups and down, twists and straights, and I;m taking them one at a time, and you know what, I am stronger, than the rest of them. They are content with their result, and yes, I don't regret mine, but that doesn't mean I'm satisfied with it. Because I have face it all, I will become a complete person, in my life I just know it.
In fact, I know I am destined to greater thing, TWO doctors, I've met, when I went for treatment and consultation, BOTH these doctors, WITHOUT me saying I WANT to become a doctor, they just know. And you know what? They gave me a first view account on being a doctor. And they SAID I will do great. AND they happen to be two of the BEST doctors in Klang. Am I surprise?At first I was, now, no longer. Because I have confidence that can shake the world, and since I was a child, I have ACHIEVED so many things, and I don't think I grew up with such experiences to fail in my life.
My aunts, uncles, and grandma turn up just now.And it kinda hurt to see them beaming proudly, WITH A HUGE BOUQUET AND A BOX A CHOCOLATE WHICH HAPPEN TO BE MY FAVOURITE in their hands. I was so touched. They were so proud of me, because..... I'm the FIRST granddaughter of my grandma. I was kinda upset. And my aunt brought me aside, and she spoke to me. All the while I had tears streaming. Their confidence in me. Was, ground-breaking. And her advice, which was joined later from my uncle, it just broke me, to see that I AM surrounded by super-nice people. People who loves me just the way I am. My uncle tried to raised my spirit saying that: "Yeah sure, half these people scored ALL As', and then they go overseas, and come back, jadi suri rumah tangga." LOL! I was laughing so much, and it might have seem like a light-hearted joke, but there's truth to it. Come on, honestly, 2939 student score straight As and do you honestly think all of them will survive? Of course NOT. And the rest who DIDN'T score, are they gonna be losers for life. THAT is a VERY wrong assumption.
Because if that was to be true:
Albert Einstein wouldn't be the man who changed the world's perspective.
Harry Potter wouldn't be the GREATEST wizard.
Adam Lambert wouldn't have made it in Idol.
Lewis Hamilton wouldnt have been the greatest rookie driver ever.
Rafael Nadal wouldn't be the world number one.
And my dad wouldn't be MY dad.
There's always an upside to the down.

Anyway, Prawn, we ARE one and the same! LOL. Why though? But not bad. It shows that WE ARE destined for greater things. Great mind thinks alike, and we have always consistently been on the same road in  our thinking. It's quite amusing, but like you said, it's a fate. I can be the COMPLETE opposite of you at the same time being the other half of you. Cause we are just AWESOME!
Tomorrow, will be a new day. And I choose my path. Because I'm the reason why my doors around me are all closed, because I get to open the one that leads to the perfect road. And yes, I still don't know what the future holds, but I know, after a hurricane, comes a rainbow.
Brag all you want guys, but one day you will turn around looking for, only to realise that hey, I'm way ahead of you.:) And this post, is dedicated to all those who are in the same boat as me. Because the world needs us to rock. Those who have faced what it's like to fall, and arise. Those who have built the strength, the wall that pieces us together.

But The Beat Goes On Da Da Dum Da Dum Da Da

I FEEL LIKE LOSING MY MIND. 

You know why?

 Because tomorrow, is THE DAY.

 23RD of March. My DEATH DAY.

 AHHHHHHH!

 God save me, pleaaaaase?

 I am so scared!

 Ohgodohgodohgod!

 I'm hyperventilating!

 Restlessness.

There are SO MANY what ifs in my head right now.

I feel like.... there's not gonna be any tomorrows' after my results.

Now I feel the fear.

Because we all fear what we don't know. 

And what I DON'T KNOW IS:

The outcome of my results.

What is gonna happen after that.

Everything in my life.

I don't wanna sleep, because than morning will be here. I'm not ready. God! Save me.

Gotta come up with theme song for tomorrow. LOL.

When I sat for Spm, it was Waka Waka.XD

When taking results.. Hmmm... Maybe I should go for Eminem's Lose Yourself.

"His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy

There's vomit on his sweater already, mom's spaghetti
He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready to drop bombs,
but he keeps on forgettin what he wrote down,
the whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth, but the words won't come out
He's choking how, everybody's joking now
The clock's run out, time's up over, bloah!"

 

That's EXACTLY how I feel now. Or worse, tomorrow morning. You know what, I DON'T wanna sleep tonight. Because sleeping would mean... I close my eyes to sleep, and the next thing I know.... It's morning. That's BAD. I don't want it to be all.... It's Morning, The sun is shining, the day has come..., AAAAH! It's results day! Oh no. Why oh why does time passes this quick?? Damn.

After the result, I should have a theme song too. 

Firework? (If I'm feeling rebellious, then yes.)

Born This Way(How appropriate, baby I was born... stupid)

Needa check out for some emo-ish song. Because I do NOT have a good feeling. My stomach's churning so badly. But fingers shaking. And I'm restless. Feeling ready to cry. I'm feeling messed up. Oh Lord, save me from myself! I am SO afraid to disappoint.

I had my iPod fully charged, because music, is the only therapy I really need. 

I'm scared. 

So scared, that my life is gonna end so soon.

You hear it first from me here, I love you guys, everybody, anybody! LOL. God knows this tortured feeling.

I need my Fernando Torres, Fernando Verdasco, Rafael Nadal, Lewis Hamilton and Richard Herrera to stand by me tonight. I love love love you guys so very much!

Drama Trauma When We Love Our Friends

Tomorrow is the day. I am so
Before I go there, please oh please, I don't wanna go there. Not yet. Now, I'm here to rewind about the ohsoawesome day we had in college today. Man, it was epic!
It started out with us, Wei, Ray, and me arriving in college late, thanks to our great bus driver. But I had no qualms about it, first period was MORAL. Ugh. So obviously it didn't matter. In Moral, me, Weng Ming, and Shawn broke out into this argument about Abortion. I was all for abortion is ethical, but Ming and Shaun detested it, saying it was unethical. But Brandon agreed in abortion being ethical, and with my very reasonable stand in the argument, I should say I won the case.
'Because ladies and gentlemen, abortion happens because of some mistakes, whether it is intentionally or not. People say it's wrong, because it's ending another life. But what is there to end when the life hasn't even started?? Without abortion, trust me, dumping of babies would increase. The baby would most probably DIE. And what's the difference? There's goes a life. And even worst, the poor thing suffers before it dies, because once out of the mother's womb, we are gifted with senses, and pain is naturally one of them. Besides, even if the mother or father would not dump the baby, some people, especially those who have rushed into things, would not have master the skill of parenting, or does not want to. I mean, who likes being pushed into a situation they don't want to face? The child would only be cursed with a life of pure mental or physical abuse and uncertainty. So, abortion, based on reasoning, brings good consequences in the end of the day, when treaded with caution. And rationality."
So there, my genius of an argument. Apparently these days, I'm becoming a very very good philosopher. Oh well, talent grows within.
After that debate... we got BORED. With Mr Ari's damn lecture. And me and Weng Ming? We had no other work. This is our work:)
I am awesome!
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Weng Ming is  aweful.
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   is handsome -in his dreams- and so in everyone else's- everyone in the name of James Ng Wen Wei.:) *speechless smile* 


Blue writing: Weng Ming
Red writing: Me! 

Hahaha. We were THAT bored. Crazy la.
Anyway, there's also some awesome news today involving my awesome classmates. HAHA.

Jason:
This crazaaay guy here tried Subway for the FIRST time today. Haha. And I gotta admire his nerve: He chose Sub-of-the-day but what astounds is that, HE PUT ALL THE SAUCES FOUND AT SUBWAY INTO HIS SANDWICH EXCEPT FOR OIL AND VINEGAR. And he loved it. The rest of us(Weng Ming, Brandon Lim, Wei, Ray and me could only stare). Jason, you are awesome. And he WAS laughing a lot, in fact the rest of us did, thanks to the James-Weng Ming love triangle and Wei's mysterious admirer.XD

Weng Ming:
After lunch at Subway, we decided to go to the Web. Ray and Wei needed to print out Chem notes, the rest of us took the opportunity to log into.... Facebook of course. And Weng Ming SO wanted to read my blog. But at the same time, he warned me NOT to read his. You know, it's normal human instinct when warned not to do anything, we tend to do it anyway. Because, WATCH ME, I can do anything I want.=P
And wow, looks like SOMEONE'S IN LOVEEEE! Lol. Me and Jason were laughing over and over again. Those poetic words. Ah, Ming, you could be the next William Shakespeare I bet." Thou shalt compare thee to a summer's day..." Haha! It did sounded something like that. But it was more like this:
'I'll never forget how many times you intruded my dreams....'
" I admit, hallucination attacked my mind, and I've never dreamt of something so beautiful, so pure."
"because you look beautiful and charming all the time. "
Okay, I should stop before Ming slaughters me. Hahahah! But it was.. hilarious. So.. un-WengMing-ish. And Jason, was so excited over it. Haha! Maybe you should try more sentimental lines... like.... "You, yes, you, why can you see, you have always been the one there? You light up my days like the sun does to the world. Without you, I can't see!" Hahahaha!
Oh who am I kidding... James comes up with WAY better ones. I was retelling the story about Weng Ming being in love to Shaun. He was like, "who is Weng Ming in love with?"
Wei Wei was like, "James!"
And James: He got the KICK out of it! He was so excited. And he came up with these lines ESPECIALLY for Ming:
Weng Ming! You are my A*!(That's like A+ in A-Levels.)
Weng Ming, you are BETTER than my SPM results! 
Hahahahaha! That was HILARIOUS! Should have SEEN Ming's face... EPIC! Man, these two, will NEVER get old. I say, Weng Ming, stop avoiding James, and embrace him. LOL. That sounded... wrong. Haha. How sweet. Maybe you should ask Jovan to teach you some moves to get James whoeverisit out. No need to write in your blog la. Let the Shakespearian spirit unleashed to the world, Haha! 


Wei Wei:
Her case was funny. As we were leaving the Web to get to class, we came across the door of the Web, which is some transparentkindadoor and it just rained, so it was wet. And someone, god knows who, traced a "Alex (a heart diagram) loves Wei Wei. LOL! And we kept pondering who was the mysterious Alex. IT WAS FUNNY! I mean, I dunno if it was a coincidence or what but, she is probably the ONLY Wei Wei in the Web that time, right??? It looked freshly traced. Scary, I should say. But it was a JOKE.




Anyways, after class we were in McD, and had McFlurry:D Trust me we LAUGHED THE WHOLE DAY. Even after McD. 
Wei Wei was calling Jason perverted when she was talking about perverted stuffs. Like the pot calling the kettle black.
And after downing a McFlurry and an Apple Pie, this nuthead Wei Wei, says she feels THINNER.
Jason says that was the 2ND BIGGEST JOKE HE HAS EVER HEARD. 
The first biggest joke was apparently Wei Wei herself. Haha. She's suchaaaa ongoing pervert. God Bless Her.
Just praying I wouldn't be crying the WHOLE day tomorrow. Ahhhhh. Nerves. NERVES.