Loved And Lost

Oh brilliant, Chester See posted his new video exactly one minute after I posted my last post wondering where is his Tuesday video. Brilliant, Chester, BRILLIANT.
But still, yayy a new original! I lessthanthree YOU!:)

When Everything Else Is Better Than Reality

Ohkay, so I'm so into this book series called the Fallen Series, and currently TOTALLY hooked to the 3rd book Rachel got me, (Rachel Saw, you have no idea how much I love you!) and I'm so into this guy called.. Daniel Grigori. He's a fallen angel in the story, one of the main character, a character to die for. I seriously thought there wouldn't be a single character that could beat Damen Auguste, maybe I was wrong. Oh no, I shouldn't compare, Damen Auguste is too amazing, TOO AMAZING! But Daniel Grigori... aaaah! Ever since I heard they are making a movie out of it, I can't wait to hear the cast. But there are so many rumours, I don't know which to believe! But when I heard there's gonna be a movie, the first guy I pictured as Daniel Grigori is.. Alex Pettyfer. Mostly because I loveee this guy SO MUCH, and I think he makes the PERFECT Daniel Grigori in the whole of Hollywood. Of course he wouldn't come anywhere near the real Daniel Grigori who is too amazing, but the actor who fits PERFECTLY, would be him of course. From time to time I kept googling who would be casted as the casts of the movie, and Alex Pettyfer kept popping out. I got SO FREAKING EXCITED! The guy is PERFECT! Anyway, I think he's so wanted, because he was even suggested to take the role of Jace from The Mortal Instruments, RACHEL SAW, THEY ARE MAKING A MOVIE OUT OF THE SERIES! And I can't believe everyone wants Alex for the main role. NO! Let him be Daniel Grigori! Anyway, I don 't have to worry about the Mortal Instruments cause they have already casted Jamie Campbell Bower, the guy who acted as Caius in Twilight, and the young Gellert Grindelwald in Harry Potter.(We didnt really see much of him.) Not a very good choice I would say. Anyway, I will probably read the Mortal Instrument series at the end of this year.

Anyway, just now, I googled again, because I want to see if the movie is already under production. And if the casts are confirmed, and then I found out... another rumour is going around. LIAM HEMSWORTH MIGHT TAKE THE ROLE OF DANIEL GRIGORI... NOOOOOOO! I almost screamed.
No, no, NO! Alex Pettyfer was BORN for it!
I kept praying, even now, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE let it NOT be true! Alex Pettyfer, HANDS DOWN!
Not that I hate Liam, I think he's oh-kayyy. (Anyway, if the rumour is true, I'm gonna end up being a big fan of his when the movie comes out anyway, because it's DANIEL GRIGORI!), but for now..
Liam is not really fit for the ohsoawesome character of Daniel Grigori because...
-ALEX PETTYFER, like HELLO!
-He doesn't have a good taste in girls, hahah. I mean, he's current girlfriend, is MILEY CYRUS. And when I googled his picture, all I see is him kissing her. She takes up 3 quarter of the pictures, anyway. But WHY HER?
-I love his elder brother too much. Chris Gorgeous Hemsworth. HAHA!
I'm biased I guess. Maybe Liam would do better than Alex. Maybe he would be perfect as Daniel. Maybe it's gonna be Liam, for real. Maybely Alex is too badass to accept this character. Guess it's gonna be Liam. (But I want Alex! Gahhh.)

Anyway, female lead is apparently confirmed to be taken by Lucy Hale. She's not bad. She would make an awesome Lucinda Price.:)

Alex Pettyfer FTW! *crosses fingers*
Sorry guys, can't help it.

This, is Liam Hemsworth.

 And this, is the one and only gorgeous, Alex Pettyfer.

This, is Liam and is elder brother, Chris Hemsworth. See how wayyy better Chris looks? Hahah. Biased.

And this, meanwhile is a stranded picture of two of my favourite superheroes. (But Batman still comes first.) Chris Hemsworth as Thor, and the more awesome Chris Evans as Captain America. (Yeash, I love Chris Evans more.:))

This, is another extremely gorgeous picture of Alex.

This is a mega-cute picture of Alex.

And this, is how Alex would look in ten years time.

Just kidding, this is Jenson Alexander Lyons Button who I think bears an astounding resemblance to Alex, only much older and less well-built, but he's so amazing, and CONGRATULATIONS on your podium finish last Sunday, WE HEART YOU! We want you still, so please, please, please stay in Mclaren. Please?

There you go, a blog post dedicated to the hype of Alex Pettyfer and the Fallen cast.

But there's one character that makes me curious as to who would be casted. Jet black hair with green eyes. (Man, that sounds like Harry Potter.) Cameron Briel. Saya sukaaa dia jugak. Oh c'mon and hurry up with the movie!

P.S- Dear director and producer, please, please, please don't ruin the movie, for me, pleaaaase?

P.P.S- Dear Chester See, WHERE IS YOUR TUESDAY VIDEO? It's Wednesday already!

I lessthanthree Alex Pettyfer! Hahah.

Cause When A Heart Breaks, It Dont Break Even.

Greetings, humans and animals and aliens and monsters, and beasts, and angels (If only Daniel Grigori reads this..) and demons..
I've got an announcement to make. But first...I've been off the Internet lesser yesterday than I've ever been... almost everyday. Well, yesterday was at Ikea and The Curve, so very tiring, (Got rings! Thanks Christinaaa!(Demi-inspired, teehee!)) and then came back, hit the badminton court, so, I was practically dead by 6, but end up washing my car which I have not washed for 2 weeks, and that took ONE FREAKING HOUR because it was too filthy and the dirt gave me a hard time. Then showered, and by the time I got out, it was time for THE VOICE! While watching it, I decided to multitask, the Internet, of course. And then it just took a minute, got heartbreak going to Facebook AND some other websites. Talk about series of unfortunate event. Deciding to ignore reality, I switched of my laptop, and watched the show the whole way, keeping my mind blank except for swooning over Blake Shelton and Adam Levine(who I happen to hate too.) I'm a huge fan of Maroon 5, but their recent album... have been quite disappointing. Especially that one song which I feel so... never mind. But recently I totally fell for TWO of Adam's songs, again, before they hit the top of the charts, and guess what? Now both songs are at 1st and 4th place respectively. Moves Like Jagger and Stereo Hearts. Amazing songs, amazing. And I love you Adam. I know I hate him, but I don;t think that's true because I found myself going on a Maroon 5 marathon this morning, So yeah. So yeah, back to the topic. Heartbreaks. What can I say? Ohkay, who cares. I'm getting pretty good at controlling my emotions these days, BUT APPARENTLY SOMEONE CAN'T AND DRIVING THE REST OF US CRAZY JUST BECAUSE SHE OR HE IS SUFFERING WITH THEIR DAMN INSECURITIES AND PULLING US IN IT TOO! Get a grip on yourself, will you! So much for controlling emotions. So yeah, yesterday reality felt... BORING, SICK, SAD, HURTFUL, DEPRESSED, DISTRESSED, PAINFUL and every negative adjectives there is.
And The Voice and story book is a perfect getaway. I loveee The Voice show, seriously, that is one show that beat American Idol hands down. I wasted months getting hyped up over AI this year, ugh. Ohkay, I admit, I love Adam Levine and couldn't take my eyes of him.
And as for story book, I'm completely hooked. PASSION! Always waiting for the part Daniel Grigori comes. So saddd. When I read those books I love, I'm completely lost in them.Completely.
So yeahh, reality can hurt ALOT, and thus... this emo post. Angry emotions and everything else. Oh, who cares?
VMA this year is.... weird. Lady Gaga came as Jo Calderone. SCARY. Demi Lovato looked so beautiful! As always. Justin Bieber! My poor guy has lost his sense of fashion. SERIOUSLY, JUSTIN? Red pants, leopard-printed sneakers and a SNAKE. Wow. Nicki Minaj shows why her sense of clothing is worst than LG. Katy Perry.. is being Katy Perry. With pink hair. Beyonce, beautiful. Seriously, they are all dressed so colourful. But the best controversy of all.... ADAM LEVINE.
He did not go for the award show, and... he criticised it on Twitter.
First, he tweeted this,

the VMA's. one day a year when MTV pretends to still care about music. I'm drawing a line in the sand. fuck you VMA's.


Then he posted this...

still waiting to have my "jerry macguire mission statement moment of deep regret..." not happening. phew!


And finally.. this.

i may be a pop singer. but every once in a while the angsty teenager in me just blurts out some raw honesty. it's a reflex.

Don't we all LOVE him? I do. Hahah.

 Someone, just kill me. Ohkay, that's it, gotta go for a movie: CARS 2! My awesome Lewis Hamilton is in it! And he looks  hot, even as a car.:D

Didn't I say I have an announcement to make?
AS OF TODAY, I, DEENA VERDASCO, HAVE GIVEN UP ON ALL SPORTS EXCEPT FOOTBALL, FOR THIS YEAR. I've have given up on Rafael Nadal gaining back the No.1 spot in the world rankings, given up on Fernando Verdasco to come back to the Top 10 in the world, given up on Fernando Torres scoring for Chelsea, (because he's never gonna make it in THAT team) but but but I'll still keep faith on him scoring for his country in any international duty because THAT is a very possible fact, given up on all my badminton dudes, given up on Lewis Hamilton to make one of the greatest comeback in F1 because Mclaren is one team that has no luck(seriously Mclaren, 3, yes, 3 DNFs! Red Bull has NONE, how is that possible?!). So yeah. The only team I've faith left is Liverpool, because they suffered last season, thus left of the hook this season, but the rest...  BUT I STILL LOVE ALL OF THEM! This year's over anyway. Sighs.
There, DONE.

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay,
 I'm falling to pieces,
I'm falling to pieces..

Pull Up A Controller, There's Two Of Them!

(This post might get more dramatic as it goes on. because the writer is high on drugs, so you have been warned.)

I woke up this morning and saw the sun is shining, the birds are singing... Oh wait, it was cloudy. Even now. But still, the day is sparkling, sparkling!
Ohkay, so yeahh, I was emoing last night, all upset, like...

It's two a.m, where do I begin... Crying off my face again.. The silent sound of loneliness.. Wants to follow me to bed...


Lonely? Hell NO! But yeah.. I was all in tears.. AGAIN. And you know what? I'm get pretty tired of all this. Drama and pain and everything else, and why? Because I care too much. I should stop, stop!

If you could only just stop, stop, stop running, if you could only rake a second to breathe it in...


So yeah, I got up blasting my iPod in my ears, and it's like morning Redbulls.:)
And yeah, I've decided to give up on some things. (Yeah right, like the hell I can.) You care too much, but don't you see how sad is it, when the person or people you've been always thinking of, praying for their happiness and holding onto their memories, don't even think about you for even a second of their day? Very, very sad indeed. Sighs. And then you realise it, and tears started pouring in, and your heart is torn, sliced, and broken.... THAT WAS YESTERDAY.
Now, I'm like "DO YOU THINK I CARE?" Actually not really. I don't forget my friends and leave them out, I LOVE THEM! Too much, sadly. But, who cares? My dear friends always know, that I'll go:

You can count on me, like 1, 2, 3 and I'll be there, and I know when I'm needed,  I can't count on you like four, three, two and you're be there, cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah.:)


There you have it. I don't wanna do this anymore, I don't wanna be the reason whyyy... I mean, I don't wanna care about all this too much, it's getting pretty TIRING. Okay, so they don't wanna be bothered with you anymore, they don't feel that you are worth their time and energy, they have better people to care for, only those who deserves their affection, but "WOMAN, GET A GRIP ON YOURSELF, BECAUSE THERE ARE OTHERS WHO REALLY DO CARE!". Exactly. I shouldn't let others to jeopardise others chance of seeing my breathtaking smile (yeah, right) but still. This is what I told a friend of mine,
" I wanna make a change, because we did our best, cared for them, they didn't appreciate, one day they are all gonna feel what's it like. What goes around, comes around. Life's too short for all that prolonged emo moments, you cry wipe your tears then, move on! Capture the more beautiful things in life."  Partly cause, it's the truth.

Ohkayhhh.. This post is getting weirdly DRAMATIC.
Oh well I'll just say, "sucks to be you right now?". HAHA. Teehee!

But behind the scenes she means the world to me, I wanna tell her that she's beautiful and tell her that she's loved, wanna tell her she's cared, wanna tell her I care, but that won't win her heart, BECAUSE... 

The post was purely inspired by Ryan Higa and Kevjumba whose videos I watched and re-watched again this morning in my already high state.
I lovee those boys.:)

"I cried during Up, I cried during Kung Fu Panda 2, and I cried when my hero Yao Ming retired." HAHAH.

"This is even more embarassing, but my friends and I, have matching pajamas." HAHAHA! Ryan Higa and KevJumbaaaa!=D

"For example, why is it traditional for a guy to open a door for a girl but a girl never does it for a guy?"

"Girls say it's so sweet when guys get them candies, and gifts and flowers and what do we get, FREE HUGS?"

"Why is there girls day, but when it comes to boys, it's CHILDREN'S DAY?!"

IMAGINE IF GUYS GET SENSITIVE IF GIRLS LIKE SEEING THEIR MUSCLES. Hahah!

They are awesome. Ahhh you guys!:D

My heart's a stereo, it beats for you so listen close, hear my thoughts and every no-o-ote. Make me you radio, and turn me up when you feel low, this melody was meant for you, JUST SING ALONG TO MY STEREO:)

(And it becomes more random.)

Keep calm and... Sleep. Goodnight World, sleeping now.:D (I know it's 1, in the afternoon.)

Hearts! I Mean, Less Than 3, Less Than 3:)

This post was supposed to be posted yesterday, the 25th. But I was sofreakingtired, I left it halfway. So read it like it's still the 25th, okay?! Love, Deena Verdasco the Great.:)

Today, what a day, what a day!
Physics practical, was fantastic. For once. The practical exam we have been dreading the most happens to be the easiest. See how unexpected and surprising life can be? Exactly. Thank God, no electrical question! I could have laughed out LOUD the moment I flipped through the paper. Pendulum bob. The first practical we ever did in secondary school.

And after that, lunch wasn't easy. We went from McD to Face to Face, to Jojo to some non-existent Canadian Pizza, finally in Pizza Hut. Thanks ALOT, Brian Teoh, thanks ALOT. Not only I wasted 11 bucks on a sucky spaghetti, he also left without paying his share of tax. How amazing.
And Brian and Vincent are mad psychos. They were screaming on the road all the way at each other. The epic part is as we approach Pizza Hut, the shouted at each other sofreakingdramaticallyandLOUD, everyone, LEFT, RIGHT, DIAGONALLY, BEHIND, EVERYWHERE, turned and look. I walked way behind, I don't know them. Embarrassing. So embarrassing. And in Pizza, Brian wanted to sing karaoke. So his makeshift karaoke machine.. is his iPhone.

The best part of the day was, BAZAAR! Bazaar Ramadhan at Andalas, was awesome. Incredible, the food, so much of them! All six of us, enjoyed alot, and so much of foood! Chia, Kern Yen, Vincent, Bryan, Chris and me. Vincent and Kern Yen drove. Going to the bazaar, Bryan drove Vincent's car, cause apparently he's too sleepy, Vincent, and Kern Yen drove his. And I tell you, of ALL cars they could collide with, they HAD to come to close collision with EACH OTHER. Thanks to Bryan's bad sense of direction and Kern Yen's impatience? it was so close. And Christina screamed, she was sitting in KY's car. I was in Vincent's car with Bryan. Fantastic.

But bazaar! The food! The ATMOSPHERE. But the best part, I SAW PUAN ASIAH! The moment I saw her, I started running to her, I don't know what made me do it. Maybe because I miss high school too much? She was equally happy to see me! She was obviously just after school, and we chatted, Chris had a bad timing, she went to take her camera from the car, she missed Puan Asiah. Oh god, I miss her. She said, "Terima kasih kerana tegur saya." THAT, is enough to make my entire day.:) I was still reeling over the excitement of seeing her, and talking to her, I don't know why I got so excited. She recognised me! I'm so happy.

I wasn't the only one who saw my teacher at the Bazaar, that's the funny part. Kern Yen saw his sejarah teacher, and said Hi. She only smiled. Hahh, that's why Puan Asiah ROCKS.:) And Vincent, wow, this dude. He was shocked. Why? He saw his teacher SELLING food. And he was like, " She's using her teaching license to sell! How can?' Hahaha. Anyway the food,(darn, should have taken pictures of it.) lemang, rendang, roti jala, jellies, otak-otak, cempedak, and loads other, (I malas nak taip.:D)

And so we bought food for our family, and then got some for us to share, different food, a variety of them. But it was already 6.20, my mum says I should be back by 7, need to send my bro to tuition, and Chris insists on eating together, so guess where did we go? We sneaked into the top floor of McD. Hahah. KY and Bryan bought choc sundae and sundae cone to compensate for it, but supposingly, we should obey the sign saying no outside food allowed. And we didn't.:) So much fun!

Anyway:
We hacked Bryan's phone today! Hahah. He kept his phone in Vincent's locker, and went for practical for the first shift, and when Vincent and me went to keep the rest of PM13's phone and some other dudes' ones too, we saw Bryan's prized possesion. The one he's SO proud of. And the bijak dude, didnt lock it. And facebook, LOGGED IN. So, it's like opportunity comes knocking at the door, why waste it? And this dude, the night before, he hacked Chia's account. So lo and behold, revenge is sweeeet. Chia was there too. Teehee! Hahaha. And I checked him into weirddd location: "Panda's Wonderland!". WHERE THE HELL IS THAT? Vincent put the caption of that check in as: " I'm finally reunited with my family." Hahah. And the statuses, GROSS. Disgusting. We shall spare that. Everyone started commenting on his status, and later on he said, "My stupid friend hacked my account." But the best comment of all, was from his own Bio lecturer. If it happened many times already, then maybe it's not your friend who's stupid." HAHAHA! The last time he got hacked was multiple times from Vincent and Kern Yen. Poor dude. So funny! And after that, when  grabbed his phone, the password is set. Sudah terhantuk, baru tengadah. Hahaha.

On the 26th, I say:
So, yeah, veryyy eventful day it was, yesterday. So much fun and excitement! Ahhh love you guys, Chris, Vince, KY, Chia and Bryan! Thank you God for allowing me to have them in my life.:) Now, as for the holidays.. time to make the most of it. *Ryan and Kev, NOW you can post more videos, please?* Ryan Higa, he makes my life. Teehee! Hahaha.

Addicted to the YTF crew.:)

P.S- (Besides my awesome college homies and the amazing Waniey, Ama and Tharshini) WHERE HAS EVERYBODY ELSE WENT TO? They all left.

I'm Supposed To Be Studying?

Those shoes! 

Ahh yes, he's always doing something no one else does.:)

We Are Smiling But We're Close To Tears

So many things I want to change. But too late, too late! Hey, I'm no superhuman. I make mistakes, ALOT. I want those dreams to come true, but.. it's a long shot. Ohh, who cares?

We all have flaws. The end.

But does that mean you can't live with a little more love? Do you think all that spiteful words, hurtful, is gonna make you the superior one, the smartest, the best? Think again. They are your family, who cares about you. Don't go talking about them, like that. You think words are nothing, but it's worst, it hurts so fucking much.

P.S- Holiday for a day tomorrow, so excited! Can sleep. Today, I hardly did. Cloudy night. Hope it rains.

Remember Me?

Do you forget about your closest friends, YOUR BEST FRIENDS, the ones you swore will be friends for life, the moment a guy enters your life? I can't believe some people still choose love over friendship. Not that it's a completely bad thing, but in some ways, friendship is a real thing. In fact, when you're in a relationship, you should value your friendship with the guy or girl first, before holding on to love. Because it's that friendship that builds the bridges, love could fatally create walls, and wars.

Had a friend, a best friend, whom I loved so much, for years at school. We shared so much memories we had in that big family we built while in school, and she was always the sensible one. Until she found a guy. Sure, he means the world to her, I was happy for her, when she had problems at the start of her blossoming relationship, I was there to listen. Now, she's no longer here. All she cares about is him.
I texted her, I get short replies.
I wall posted her, she only likes my posts, no reply.
And my birthday, she didnt wish me yesterday. Instead, she wall posted today, as Weng Ming put in, just like another random friend, and moved on. Saying she forgot.
That gesture alone, broke me. I know I should care more about those who made the effort, to go out of their way to celebrate my birthday.. Then I remember, she used to do it too. Last year. The year before. What if the people around me now, do the same?
I don't know if I can face this change. Because it isn't fair.
A simple text, which take no longer than a minute, would have at least been comforting. But people change, people change. You abandon those you were there those years, in a matter of months, after meeting someone else. You leave those memories behind. And that, is how you live a sad life. You leave everything behind, you didn't hold onto them, like you should. Many are like that, huh? They don't know how to live, or what is even the point of living. To fall in love with a guy and all you can think is him, and forgot those who had been nice to you? I don't think so.

I Don't Know If I'm That Strong, After All.

When I read the birthday post Weng Ming composed for me in his blog, I was very touched. It was a really beautiful post, and I've never appreciate more the fact that I have friends who actually hear and knows everything I do and like. Like how Rachel knows how much I want the book she got me, Weng Ming knows every favourites of mine, sports, music and even what I write in my blog. The messages behind it, and I couldn't have been more touched by a beautiful blogpost. Thank you, Weng Ming, thank you so much. It's one of the sweetest thing anyone could do, I know I have a true friend. We all miss you for everything you are, all those 6 months.

Just know, an hour ago, the postman came. And I shouted, "my birthday card!" I was so perasan it was gonna be for me. On the way out, I said to my mom, "so sad, I only got one, from my mom." I know what you must be thinking, ungrateful. Nahh I wasn't expecting cards from those who gave me gifts, but from my relatives who never failed to send me every year, and this year however.. I guess they forgot. And whatdoyouknow? I got a card. Saw the writing on the envelope, and I was like, " wait, this looks so familiar, is it Afiqah's? I opened it, so excited (oh yeah I forgot to mention, the moment when I saw it was a birthday card, I started screaming. My mom looked at me incredulously, she couldn't believe either that my random thought earlier was for real.) And the card was incredible! It even had an AWESOME Rafael Nadal picture, FIQAH SAHAR, I LOVE YOU! 

Oh man, he looks so fineee.;D

You awesome people.=)

Fiqah's card!

Bryan's and EuJian's. Ancient priceless artifact.:)

Mommy!=D

Rachel's HARDWORK!=)

I can't wait to get down and read this, exams, MOVE FAST!

 Vincent Loo Win Soon!:D

Eighteen Years On And I Survived

The moment I woke up this morning,
I thanked God for allowing me to survive, for 18 years, as of today. I feel privileged, it's something not everyone in this world is blessed with. Because there is a circle of life going on around us, people die, and there are new-born babies So with that, I thanked God for everything he has given me thus far, it's feels amazing. And life is beautiful, when I noticed it. As of today, as I turned 18, I planned to live every moment of my life. We don't know what will happened, but grab the chance while it's there. Life is a gift.

I'M 18, YES, 18 YEARS OF AGE!

So anyway, my birthday this year is amazing, as always for the past three years. Uhhh.. crazy, CRAZY! Besides the fact I had Maths P6 for exam, and however much it sucked, the rest was wonderful. My beloved friends planned a surprise for me, something I've been having for 3, yes THREE! consecutive years. Crazy.

Firstly, RACHEL SAW. This dude here, GOT ME THE BOOK I'VE BEEN DYING TO GET, THE SAME BOOK I'VE GONE A MILLION TIMES INTO POPULAR TO SEE IF IT'S THERE. Even if I can't buy it. The book I've blogged about before, how I got a crush on the guy, Daniel Grigori! OhmygoshIwasSHOCKED! I knew it was a book when I felt it, but it kept me wondering, what book would Ray get me, and when I unwrapped it, yes I had to do it so extremely slowly, BECAUSE the wrapper alone was so amazing(I'll post the pics tomorrow), I screamed. Bryan was like, "so you like a book better than our presents la now? Fine, I will take the pillow back. Hmph." Hahah! Yes, I always believed that story books is THE BEST gift I can ever get. I so LOVED IT. Passion! I can't believe it, the book I WANTED THE MOST. Rachel Saw and Alison Chiew, I HEART you guys!:) Best gift ever.:)

And then. After exam, I went to find those fellas, but aparently, somehow everyone became too busy to hang out with me on my birthday. I went to library and hung out with Hui Yen. We stalked people on facebook, tweeting each other although we were next to each other, and when she was watching Ryan Higa's new video through her iPhone, which I refused because I wanted to watch it in HD, lol, I stared at the screen of the computer and then finally decided to thanked all those amazingly kind soul who wished me in Facebook. THANK YOU. And Chris called. Me and Hui Yen went down, and Bev came along.
Truth was, these nutheads I have for friends, planned a surprise for me. And trust me, it was SHOCKING, because they did the acting SO WELL. Bryan Ong was the BOMB. Hahah. He feigned pretense so well, the fact that he didnt know it was my birthday today, when apparently he went shopping yesterday to get me a present. They came out with the cake, which was so beautiful! Topped with strawberries, which apparently didn't appeal much to Chris' taste, but I LOVE STRAWBERRIES! And the gifts they got me! Bryan and EuJian got me a Liverpool pillow with Torres.;D They knew it was old, but that was my favourite,Chelsea would have just angered me. Lol. Vincent Loo, got me a.. Ray Ban sunglasses. I swear... Lol. Vincent Loo's card was cuteeee! The EXACT same in and out. Brilliant, Vince, brilliant! Kern Yen got me a PLUSH TOY! For someone who assured me my childhood days are over and my adult days are in, his gift totally corroborate with his words. Totally.
Lunch was awesome, at Cassian Kitchen. Bryan Ong actually sacrificed DotA to join us, it's shockingly AMAZING! Not all guys care to do that, DotA is somewhat addictive. Thank you, Bryan! Hui Yen meanwhile was highhhh, and talking with her the entire day, got me high too. Gosh, my friends.

Mom got me a Parker pen which has my name on it! It was so expensive looking, I was so touched! They got me a car, but they still want to get me birthday gifts. My parents. Daddy got me CK perfume, which was amazing. Thanks, mom and dad. My brothers, WERE EXTREMELY NICE TO ME TODAY, can you believe it? I didn't. But they were, so APPLAUD! Not a single riff between us! Amazing.

Amalinaaa! I miss you!. Your text made my day. Waniey Johari! You did as you promised, I love you!=)
And THANK YOU to everyone who wished me. Chia Lian Ching wished me the MOST! An average of one wish, EVERY HOUR. Hahaha!

I was so touched with all the love everyone showed me. Seriously, you guys are fantastic. Thank you for being part of my life. I love all of you.:)

(But there's a small part of me resenting the fact that 2 of my best friends did not wish me, at least one didn't at all, till now, while the other... I expected her to be the first. Oh well.)

Anyway, THANK YOU, everyone, THANK YOU! Thanks for making the best things of my day. All these are memories I'll hold onto in years to come. And they do mean alot, ALOT. I couldn't have asked for better people in my life.

The Fact You Saw The Whole World Affected All Your Decisions

Dear Chemistry,

You made me insecure (you ruined my day!),
Told me I wasn't good enough (So I wasn't fast enough, but the questions, injustice!).
But who are you to judge? (Just some paper trying to test my intelligence? Oh hell no.)
When you're a diamond in the rough.(Seriously, not ALL of us do titration to earn a living, ya know.)
I'm sure you got something, that you would wanna change about yourself, (Hell yeah, the questions, how is it that our batch gets the hard one?!)
But when it comes to me, I wouldn't wanna be anybody else! (Seriously, I hate that freaking subject.)

Nahhhhhhhhhhhhh...

I'm no Chemistry freak, I'm just the normal ME.

Who says, who says... You're so important that you had to ruin my day, CHEMISTRY?
YOU. SUCK.

I did sing this song when we were waiting for the bus. Yes, it's THAT bad. Sighs. My life is over.

P.S- I came back to life when I went out a couple of minutes ago. The sky! Beautiful stars and captivating wind. Yes, I wished upon the star.=)

I've Never Been So Sure About A Single Thing In My life

FACELIFT!=)

Today was wonderful. Cheesecakes, gifts, strawberries, ice cream!, bangles!,  jellies, Cameron Mitchell, Chester See, and everything else. 

Amazing how simple things can be beyond incredible, when you love it all the same.:)

Finite Incantatem

I was suppose to post this yesterday... until I fell asleep on my keyboard.

Just so like me, when I really want to do something, to help me, myself survive, I never had get it done. And so was my promise to stay of social networks, and my blog. But I did achieve half the success, as far as my blog is concerned. So yeahhh.
TRIALS!
Can be draining, today when I'm back at 5.30pm at home, I saw my eyes... had eye bags. EYEBAGS. I don't normally get eyebags! Thanks alot, TRIALS.

But what was even more draining is... getting all hyped up for your favourite team or player, only to have them lose. And I completely feel for them. Last weekend, was a BAD ONE.

On FRIDAY, Fernando Verdasco and Rafael Nadal both lost in the 2nd round of Rogers Masters. (Why, Nando, WHYYY?! Love you, Rafaaa.)
On SATURDAY, Liverpool DREW with Sunderland. But at least they scored a goal, unlike sucky Chelsea, (Fernando Torres was so fineeeee this week, the only one in the teamXD).
On SUNDAY, our very much beloved badminton hero, Datuk Lee missed out on the world title which should be rightfully his. HIS. Lin Dan rode on luck. That's all I'm sayin'. It isn't fair whatsoever for Malaysians to lose every freaking time in the finals of BIG events! Whyyy? We are not credible? Last year was Koo and Tan, and this year, Chong Wei came so close, SO CLOSE. He's still amazing. Our numero uno! And please don't cry, it breaks us too.:(

So anyway, THAT was the weekend heartbreak, otherwise, life's great, great.
Because August is just as awesome as it's name.:)
And to my dear ones, I'm always here when you need me, always ready to listen and understand.:)

And oh yeah, I forgot. Dear Rachel Saw, I am so extremely sorry for today, I DID LOOK FOR YOU! Tiger said you disappeared, I assumed you went homeee! You KNOW I wouldn't ditch you! Love you Arivali Singam, jangan marah2 kayhh?! :D

I HATE EXAMS. Just as much as I hate that dude from China who doesn't love his shoes the way he should. Sighs.

 All we can ask now is, "WHYYYY?!"

College's out for the next two days, so waking up at 7am! Finally. I woke up at 3 today, AT THREE! Not like I could sleep the rest of the night, I got disturbed after the badminton match. Yes, I know, irrational, but true. Toss and turn. I'm so excited this week, god knows why.:)

P.S- I miss watching Fernando play (in red). Alot.

Just Sing Along To My Stereo

This would be my last post for about.. two weeks? I would probably not be blogging till the 19th or 20th, thanks to trials, and I'm am going to achieve a gargantuan feat.. Of not logging into Facebook, Blogger, and Twitter. I might log into Facebook during weekends though. I guess you can't get me out of there, the usual.
Anyway, so yeah. no onlining for sometime, studying my head off for three weeks, trying not to get distracted with the badminton world championships, tennis masters series, and.. the internet. (Ryan Higa and Kevjumba, please, please don't make me miss alot. Please??) Thank you F1 for saving my life from NOT having any races while I suffer. I can get myself out of distraction brought by badminton, tennis, BUT NOT F1. And THANK GOD, I don't have to put up with any races while my trials go on, thanks to their summer break which coincided.:) There, my explanation as to why I 'might' be absent the coming days virtually.

August have been very very kind to me so far, and I am very grateful. Because probably it's the best I've felt all year, and that's something great, and totally relieving. I should celebrate.:)
The best part is, I can actually appreciate every day as it comes, and live one day at a time. It's so fun.
The day before, I was enjoying a sunset, which gave the impression of a rose.
I don't know how many of you guys actually watch as the sun goes down, but I do. And it might be some cheesy cliche to some, but in essence, it's not. Sunsets are one of the most beautiful things we can see.
Just like the stars at night, they are beyond gorgeous. And roses! Those are magical flowers, they are.:)

Sunsets, stars and roses.:)

Maybe it's time some people live out of the box. How sad it is to live life so completely blind to life's gift, and the world around.
I read the Somalian famine story, and cried. I felt the sorrow and pain felt by them, but it's heartbreaking I could do nothing more but to pray. The Somalians suffer in famine caused by some political power-hungry beasts, and 29000 kids have died the last three months. Mothers suffer in pain and grief. It's incredulous! I bet many aren't aware of this problem happening in that part of the world. We could send out a prayer, I suppose. We live here in all luxuries of life, blessed with everything, and yet we complain. Don't worry, I'm no saint either. And I am ashamed of myself, at times. I have it all. We have it all. We are probably to blind to see it.

They who deserve nothing, have everything.

So, that's it for now. I extend my prayers to those in Somalia, the innocent ones suffering, God, save them.

Anyway, that's it, gotta go, love you guys, love, everything.:D

There's Always A Place In Me You Can Call Home

"Just know that you're not in this thing, alone; There's always a place in me you can call home, whenever you will like we're growing apart, let's just go back, back, back, back, back to the start.:)"

There are times certain songs reminds me of my friends. The one I miss.

So it's been alright, this week so far, prettay awesome, actually. Just, the pressure of studying is getting on to me. So, I'm taking a breather to blog (and watch Chester See's new video.:D) I must say I miss all of them so much, you guys, where are you when I need you?! All over Malaysia, you are. Kedah, Perlis, Pahang, Sunway, Shah Alam, SAM block Taylors.. Hahah. The last one was unnecessary but still, it's not like I get to see them everyday.
Yesterday, our wonderful Thinking Skills teacher, yes note the sarcasm, decide to play musical microphone today, just cause we are not really interested to answer her questions. But then again, could you really blame us? And for once she did something worthwhile, she played Michael Buble's song. And we requested, Everything! OhgoshIloveeeMichaelBuble!=) So finally, something interesting in Thinking Skills. I miss Miss Fionaaaa loads though!

I miss so may things in my life, it's true, but guess I gotta move on?
We face a lot of pain, loss and everything else, but let's just accept it, we have no choice, Ray. Life goes on, life goes on. Let's just think about the things that exist, and hold on to those that mean the world. It's easier.:)

"You're the swimming pool, on an August day, and you're the perfect thing to say.":)


(Yes, he sang August. How wonderful the month is, no? It's a beautiful month.:))

Was coming home after sending my brother to tuition, and it rained slowly, in the sunset. Romantically beautiful, no? And I was talking to myself in the car, (yes, don't laugh.) saying: "They should play Coming Home over the radio now.." *sings coming home while the DJ warbles about someone winning Pitbull's latest album, and encouraging the public to take part if we want to win too (as if.) and he says, "okay, P. Diddy ft Skylar Gray, Coming Home." I. Almost. Died. Can you believe it? It's miraculous! I felt tearful at that moment, and singing along the song, that moment I see how miracles do happen. It was magical.:)

Happy August.:)

I'm a skyscraper!

It's August. The month I am so in love with. The month in which great things happen, and great adventures starts, great people were born. Barack Obama,( the great man) :August 4th.
Dylan and Cole Sprouse, (I used to love them so much) :August 4th.
Orville Wright, ()the one half of the duo who brought you the aeroplane, so that we can flyyyy),: 19th August.
Nico Hulkenberg,( I still think he deserves a chance in the main grid) : 19th August.
Demi Lovato, (my idol, the person who made me believe that we will survive, even in our darkest days), Charlize Theron, ( My favourite childhood movie will forever be Mighty Joe Young, the movie I cried to when I was.. six?) :7th August.
Rupert Grint!(He is amaaazing. And I love him so much. Did I tell you I love him? Like totally.:D): 24 th August.
Scott Caan.(Hawaii 5-0 rebooth would be DEAD without him. AND he got a Golden Globes nomination, how cool is that?)
Andy Roddick and Pete Sampras and oh yeah, Roger Federer too. (2 awesome tennis players.Fine, 3 awesome tennis players.): August 30th and August 12th, and August 8th.
Whitney Houston(She reminds me of Jacqueline:)) :9th August.
Bill Clinton.(despite his scandals, we can't hate him, he still brought on a change in this world.) :August 19th.
So yeah, and many other great people. Most of us, are fellow Leos. The amazingly awesome one.
Oh right, I forgot to mention one name, but it's prettay obvious. Anyway, the greatest person to be born in this month who will be making a change in the world in a few months to come, is.. Deena Verdasco. Yes, it's yours truly, the one and the only awesomest person alive. No joke, I know I am awesome.:)
 So anyway, yeah, I am so excited to brave through this month, cause it's my most favourite month in the calendar, something about it makes everything else looks beautiful. Yes, August.
In fact, today is the birthday of one of my favourite story books character after Harry Potter(Harry's is yesterday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARRY, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!, yes we are all Leos, the awesome ones.:D), it's Damen Auguste. He inspires me alot.
And yeah well, I'm feeling a lil' high this month but at peace and happy. And I've vowed to NOT emo for this entire month, and despite all the shit happening in my life, I'm gonna forget them all. I want to believe, I have a life, and I love it.
So, much love, world, much love.
Wonderful how far we can go with a big bout of optimism, confidence, and happiness. And belief.
I watched this video yesterday, called Validation, and it made me feel amazing. I love it, thanks Chris!
There, in the month of August, I am as happy as I can be, and I will be. It's gonna be hectic, but the show goes on. Hahaha. Life goes on, everybody, let's face it together.
Love, Deena Verdasco.

P.S- Lewis Carl Davidson Hamilton, you were amaaazing no matter what. Jenson, I'm so proud of you! Fernando, there's always next time. Everyone, let's just shoot for the stars, for now, just like this three heroes of mine.:)