Congratulations, Duke and Duchess Of Cambridge!

I got my wish. To watch the fairytale wedding. And it was so incredibly beautiful! Well, my best friends knew I am a big fan of fairytales, so witnessing this come-to-life fairytale, was absolutely exciting. And it did not disappoint me.=) I totally loved it. It was really beautiful! Every thing in London was all set for the big day, and the atmosphere, it was brimming with celebration. If only I was there. No joke, but the fact you're just in London, is already something great, let alone getting invited. And yeah.
 Catherine Elizabeth Middleton was stunningly beautiful! She looks like the perfect princess everyone would have imagined of. The best part about her is, not only she got to marry the man she loved most, she got to become a princess. Like every little girl's childhood dream, or at least it was mine, anyway. The Cinderella dream.:) A young woman, from a middle-class family, fell in love, and love was what brought her to the princess stage. The best part: Has always been the vows. And all I could wish for was for a man who would look at me the way William looked at Kate. HAHAHA! No, seriously, when he said those words, and he looked at her, it's like she was his world. And THAT is precisely what differentiates Will and Kate from Charles and Diana, which kept me wondering, if he had someone else in his heart, why did he marry her? For revenge against Camilla? It's ridiculous in a way, Because, I can't imagine people getting married without falling in love, ALTHOUGH we are subjected to many arranged marriage around us since forever. Watching the wedding, caught me daydreaming about mine. HAHA! Dumb, no? But yes. Because there was once I was making my wedding arrangement with someone in the middle of the night, and it went on till the honeymoon stage! Hahah. It was so fun! And completely random. Anyway, it would be amazing , just totally amazing to be a princess for a day. With a Prince Charming as charming as DavidBeckhammeetsFernandoVerdascomeetsFernandoTorres.XD
Kate, Kate, Kate. Totally GORGEOUS. Amazingly beautiful. And the entire ceremony, was incredible! I am so happyyyy I got to witness the Royal Wedding, we don't get that ALL the time, ya know! Especially a fairytale Cinderella story like this one. I wannaaaaa be a princessssss with a prince charming with a castle, and horses, and a fairytale wedding, la, la, la. XD
We all can dream, CAN'T WE?=)

Did I mention how I was swoooooooning over David Beckham? My mom thinks I'm crazay. Ahhh, if only she knew. AHAHA!

SO much of  loveeeee!

P.S- I feel stucked like a Joe Jonas-Demi Lovato dilemma now, in a different situation of course. Sigh.

I Hid The Pain With Excitement

And tomorrow's the day. The day of the Wedding of the Century. Catherine Middleton weds Prince William. And I'm excited! Hahah. I know, I know, most people. don't give a damn. It's just a damn wedding, after all.
Oh who cares if nobody cares. I do! It's gonna be phenomenal.
She was just like me. Just like an ordinary girl. A girl with dreams. And now, she's gonna wed, a prince.
Which makes a princess!
Ohmygosh this is so Disney! Hahah. Only difference is, she's real. A real princess.
It's a fairytale wedding! She's amazing. I don't know why there are some people who wastes their breath criticising her, saying she's not all that beautiful. Are you kidding me? FYI, if you didn't realise, PRINCE WILLIAM, yes the PRINCE chose her. Hahah. Oh well.
If I could be a princess, just for a day, it will be amazing!
Hahah if you must know, I have dreamt of it countless of time. It's never gonna change, cause it all comes down to an individual's definition of princess, right?=)

Watching Royale Wedding Week in TLC, it's totally in my head. That's bad. Cause I'm daydreaming of the impossible. LOL. But don't misinterpret my words, I have no intention of falling for Prince Harry.=)

But Because It's So Funny Let's Just Think About It Honey;)

What I felt today, was out of this world. It feels amazing. And thank you God for giving me the opportunity to feel it like this.:D Hahah I'm babbling. I just hope things can be a lil' different though. Oh well. I will never regret anything that makes me smile. Lai Siew Ern, you came out of nowhere! Love you, my dearest.:)

The scars of your love remind me of us, 
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all, 
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless, 
I can't help feeling, 

we could have had it all....

Na na na...God let me survive for another two days, pleaaaaase? I SO WANNA FLYYYY TO LONDON! 

Oh yeahhh! Prawn! He came to Subang today.=) Was ecstatic to see him! It's been so long. Thanks, buddy.:) But why the hell you came so late I don't know. Gosh. LOL.

I Was So Young, You Should Have Known Better Than To Lean On Me.

Feelings are dumb. Always have. Always will be.
But those who ignore feelings in their so-called quest for greatness, are more stupid than one would have thought of them. When you make a person smile, just by what you say, it might be the simplest thing ever, but yet they smiled, you will feel amazing. At least I did.

Lai Siew Ern, I miss you, and you wanna know something? They only reason my hand plays across this keyboard everyday virtually penning words, is for you. Sounds exaggeratingly  lame? Well it's the truth. Because I know how you anticipate my words, because things are no longer what they were for the last two years. It will never be. Not anymore. Regret or memories? I don't know.

It's dumb when you expect people to see the world as you do. But I can't help it. I wish they would.
I need to stand up and get back stronger than before. But I'm still stuck, is this reality? Cause it's a little nightmarish, I suppose. But it's the climb, it has always been about the climb. Ain't about how fast I get there, ain't about what's waiting on the other side, it's only the climb.

Expectation is the root of all heartache? So true. Expecting some thing that's never gonna happen. It's stupid. Those people I have expected some much from. The heart of a little girl, still young and immature, getting broken .. But it can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with? Hahah.  But they played me. If I had known earlier I wouldn't be getting anything, I wouldn't have wasted my time on all of it.
 Daddy, I love you. You have always been one of the greatest thing in my life, no matter what. Thanks for being here. We tried. It didn't work out, but we will work it out.:)
Is it so hard to ask to make an effort to show that you actually care?? Think of the smile you will bring to a person's face, it will worth a million.
P.S- Dear Weng Ming, I know that your life is falling apart, but please I beg, no matter how amazing of a therapy music seems, don't blast your ears off with such volume. I won't help.
P.P.S- Thanks, Prawn.
P.P.P.S- Vino, you really are a crazy person. STALKER! I love you honeyyy!=P

At least I can count on Fernando Torres, Fernando Verdasco, Rafael Nadal, Lewis Hamilton, Jenson Button, Justin bieber, Adam Lambert etc to give me some piece of joy in my life. They despite only existing in my virtual fantasy, ARE REAL ENOUGH TO MAKE ME SMILE. I love you guys. SO MUCH. 

There's A Fire Starting In My Heart, Reaching A Fever Pitch And It's Bring Me Out The Dark

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."-Mark Twain


"The act of giving expands one's experience because nothing is more fulfilling than the capacity to give."

"When you think he’s you’re prince charming, but you’re not his cinderella, move on."

"A day without laughter is a day wasted."-Charlie Chaplin

"Ignoring is better than Plasticity."

"Expectation is the root of all heartache."-William Shakespeare

"The awareness that two people are soul mates should be bilateral. If only one person believes it, it’s called stalking." - Jessica Zafra

From early childhood many of us—the girls especially—are advised not to let on how smart we are, or else we will not find anyone who is willing to go out with or marry us.

Grades are just numbers. It won’t tell who we really are.

“Life is too short to not be who you want to be.”

"I know it shocks you because of my reaction, but you have to know, I take my best friends, very very seriously, and I love them very very much. You know that don't you Lai Siew Ern?:D Yeah so one word against any of them, and you will have to face me first. Because I know the people I choose means so much to me. Any word about them, and it hurts me equally the same, if not more. They are the good guys, the amazing ones, please do not underestimate or even misunderstand. Thank you. And oh yeah, please please please don't think humiliation is a fun thing, think again. Imagine if it's you who gets embarassed like that? We are not targetting him, we have someone else."

 

When Fernando Torres Is My Sun, My World, My Everything

I just can't believe what happened yesterday.

But well I will spare the details of what happened in the morning, let's talk about sports.:)

 LIVERPOOL VS BIRMINGHAM: 5-0

I sat, I watched, I shouted, and I was so happy.=)

No really. The game, was pure class. They thrashed Birmingham with complete ease! Given more time it wuld have been 7-0, 8-0? The teamwork inside, regardless of between defenders, strikers, midfielders EVERYTHING was fireworks! And Luis Suarez, baby, baby, babyyyyy! You gotta hand it to him to show what real football is. He was MAGNIFICENT. Oh and congrats to Maxi Rodriguez. At LEAST this time he found the net properly, and not just once but THREE times. Birmingham must be SO battered that even Joe Cole, substitute Joe Cole scored. Oh well. Hahah. I was so so so hoping for Luis Suarez to get the score though. But naturally he can't set up for himself and get it into the net immediately, that's a work of a perfectionist! LOL. Kuyt was as usual, INCREDIBLE. He has been scoring in EVERY single game Liverpool won. AMAAAAAZING Liverpool.XD

CHELSEA VS WEST HAM. 3-0
This is an unusual match for me. BECAUSE I predicted somehow, Chelsea's gonna win 3-0. I just thought of THAT score randomly in my head yesterday morning. I wanted to watch the match, but watching a marathon of Man Utd and then Liverpool and then Chelsea.. not a good idea. Not after a very very very tiring day. So I didn't watch the match. But the whole of last week, I told my brothers, I sense a Fernando Torres goal nearing. I KEPT TELLING THEM. And they were like insulting him and all that.. But I said, HE IS GONNA SCORE. Yesterday, I said, today, Fernando is gonna score for the first time for Chelseaaa. I tell it, I might not have been entirely confidence of my word, but when I said it, I thought, wtheck, I have nothing to lose really. A lot of people are already hating him, but I just have to keep my confidence in him always, and just believe the real side of him. AND this morning, I woke up, first feeling happy for the Liverpool's massacre of Birmingham, and then I realise, OHMYGOSH Chelsea! They had BETTER win. And in the shower I kept thinking, today, we will see Fernando's first score. And I rush after shower to the computer, scores, aaaaand... "Fernando delighted with first goal."

See this BEAUTIFUL Face? He's my Greek God.:D

For me, delight was an understatement. The jubilation I felt was ginormous. I was absolutely ECSTATIC. No, I was BEYOND that. Baby, baby, baby! Finally!! It was COMPLETELY amaaaazing. No seriously. It was FIREWORKS! Ahhhhh I felt the need to celebrate it the ENTIRE day. My beloved Greek God. He's like my Apollo, my very own God Of Light. During the times he was shunned for not performing up to par, I felt cold without my sun, but now, his jubilation and euphoria is the light in me. Hahahah I'm exaggerating, but who cares? I felt so so INCREDIBLY happy for him. I love love love love love you, Fernando! You are magnificent!
That was yesterday. Jubilation. Like you can FLYYYYY.XD

Today, is crazy and funny. Hahah. But I had a great time this weekend. My driving instructor picked me up and we were heading to Sri Muda to the centre for practice, when... THE STORM CAME. And so. We had to make a U-Turn, class is cancelled. And on the way, my instructor, goshhh he's CRAZAAAY! My dad was lamenting to him earlier about how I don't wanna practice with his car, but instead I want a Myvi. THAT ARGUMENT, WAS LAST YEAR. AND I forgot about it! I don't want a Myvi anymore, I want a Lamborghini as my first car! LOL.And my instructor was lecturing me, Malaysian cars, are USELESS. Aaaand then he gave me ideas of cars to buy, MOST OF THEM, MY DAD WOULDN'T THINK OF BUYING FOR ME. Say, Toyota Vios was the cheapest he suggested, the rest was Lancer, Volkswagen Passat and Polo, Camry.. Like that. He is CRAZAY. And he tries speaking to me in Mandarin. THANK GOD I understood. The world is crazay today. Very Very Very crazay.

However I enjoyed my weekends, there's still too much of dilemmas, too much of pressure, too much of misunderstandings. Ahhhhh, God Save Me. Looking forward to an AWESOME week ahead, and oh yeahhhh Wedding of the Century babyyyy! Wish I'm in London. We can only dream for now, anyway.=)

I will ALWAYS believe in you.:)

Are We An Item, Boy Quite Playing.:)

I LOVE YOU JUSTIN!
Hahah! Just HAD to do it, didn't I? Yes, YES.
Oh and guess what? Daddy picked me up from college today, and yeah that's actually a first. And on the way, he asked:
"Justin Bieber performed yesterday, huh?"
"Yeahh! I wanted to go actually...(in an almost whisper..)"
"Why didn't you go then?"
NOW YOU TELL ME! I SHOULD HAVE WENT SHOULD HAVE WENT SHOULD HAVE WENT!
Ahhhhhh. No use crying over a spilt milk. But then again, it's SO WORTH crying over Justin Drew Bieber!

Anyway..

To my dearest friend,
I want to see you back to those days again. As you said, you might not be here if God permits you to pursue your study. Please make the best memories with us while you can.:) Because we know when you're alright, you are great. Come back, hurry up!

And I thought those people were my best friends. Ohkay, one damn outing, I couldn't make it, just because you don't know my situation, don't assume things I didn't tell you. And now I don't feel like going for Hari Kecemerlangan or whatever. Because, awkwardness is not something I can handle. Of course I was the damn one who care for everything and because of one thing hey say goodbye. Like my existence is insignificant.
I don't know why I gave a damn.

And now we know the world's filled with those desperate fools. Get a life. It wasn't even intend to you guys and yet you fell for it. Which makes you no difference from the ultimate target.. Ahhh well.
Tomorrow, I am EXTREMELY nervous. It's THE day. Ohgosh.

You, make me wonder. Are you the truth or a lie?

I'm gonna miss you Stefano. You were AMAZING! God bless you. And I'm gonna miss the moment J-lo called you, "Baby, baby, baby!". Ahhhhh. Stupid voters.

Justin Bieber, You Smile, I Smile, Baby, Cause You Are My Somebody To Love.;D

I didn't post for three days already! Miraculous. Hahaha. That's cause me, Christina, Vincent, Kern Yen, Pravindra, Brian and some of my bus-mates are keeping ourselves considerably busy this days with a little 'something'! Oh man, it's SO awesome! We only end up laughing the hell out. And funnily, there's MORE to come. And oh Rachel too. Thanks Ray! We are gonna rule the world yo! Hahaah.
Anyway... I promise myself to blog today, and I want to make it a memorable one.=)
I am currently in my room disheartened, for not being able to be THERE. There, you know, THERE! Stadium Merdeka! Hello, my boyfriend's there, JUSTIN DREW BIEBER?! I think I am even MORE upset than I ever was when I couldn't go for Adam's, especially when I got tickets! Oh well. Justin Bieber, you are AWESOME. And you will have my love no matter which part of the world you are in.:)
And based on the story in The Star 3rd page today I'm so happy Bi-Anne gets to meet JB. That's so nice! She is going through a rough time, really. BUT WHY THE HELL THE MOM  WANTS HER SO MUCH?? She wants to be with her dad, who loves her equally much too! And he's has to pay RM400 to keep his daughter EVERY DAY, and as paid RM72000 TO DATE. Talk about real love. It's amazing, cause, normally Dad's don't show THAT much affection to their kids compared to moms', nor does any daughter would rather leave her mom to stay with dad. So yeahh. If the mom really loves her daughter, she would learn to let go, and give Bi-Anne some peace in her life. God bless her.=)
These are HALF of the pictures of JB in my file.XD

Oh yeahhhhh. This is a GOOD one.XD

Like, duh! Hahah.:) We love you Justin.=)

Lewis Lewis Lewis Lewis Hamilton!

I wasn't kidding when I said I'm gonna do a Lewis Hamilton today. Because me still surviving here with such an ecstatic feeling, is a miracle.

And I wasn't the only miracle that happened today, Lewis Hamilton, was beyond miraculous! He was UNBELIEVABLY amaaaaaazing. Mark Webber, kudos for him, 18th to 3rd though I was really really really hoping it would be Jenson there. Damn him. Oh well, still... I love love love love you Lew! I can see HOW Happy he still is. LOL. You so deserve it. He was amazing! It wasn't like how Vettel won last week, this was an hard-earned victory! So many AMAZING overtaking! Unbelievable.

And before he started the race, his car actually had some problem, but oh yeahhhhhh he did it!
And ironically I was listening to Nicole Scherzinger the entire morning, LOL. Coincidence.

Jenson Button tersilap identiti kot. He actually went to pit in the RED BULL PIT??? What happened? LOL. He was awesome lah. Poor Jamie Alguasuari. Curse the Torro Rosso team. Damn.

Tonight, it's Rafael Nadal, who's on the run to beat all records in existence! C'mon babyyyy Vamos!

Ahhhhhh, so happy. Oh wait, still got stuffs to do. God, I need to survive. But hey, I believed in Lewis, I was motivated to be like him today, AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I did. He is the perfect inspiration. Thank you. And next week, it ain't gonna be easy, but Lewis will be close to my heart. Love you.:)

My Greek God Ain't No Lying Judas, I Hope He Knows What He's Doing

Sue me, chop me, slice me, break me, tear me. Whatever lah. I have many many reasons and things are as complicated as ever. And you are no longer the person I share every single damn thing in my life, so you won't know. It's been months since we actually met, and be ourselves, so you should know that I'm no longer the person I used to be. But then again, you probably think I'm stupid, idiotic, and useless. Go ahead, but I'm going through enough that if I'm not sensible, I could have commit suicide, but I am, so hey, look at me, I'm still standing here with a mask.

Tomorrow, I am going to work a miracle! I'm gonna be doing a Lewis Hamilton, so dear GOD, BLESS ME!

Why oh why is my life so so complicated?
As if pressure from working out stuffs is not enough, oh look, here comes the emotional factor. First up, GUILT. I am sorry okay, but I CAN'T HELP IT!
Second, is something I don't know what's it called, but even if it has a name, I don't want it to be true. Because it just CAN'T be! God knows.

I need sanity. But apparently he's been missing these days. Dear Sanity, what have I done to you to drive you out?

Dear Artemis, can you volunteer your brother Apollo to me? I think the God of Light is exactly what I need right now. I need a godlike god for god's sake! Hahah. I love challenges. I think.
I miss you so badly.

I'm A Space Bound Rocketship And Your Heart's The Moon.

If it's because of their eyes or lips or their great body, then it's not Love, it's Lust.

If it's about their intelligence or insight in life, then it's not Love, it's Admiration.

If it's because they cry everytime you try to leave, it's not Love, it's Pity.

If it's because they make you to forget to study and sleep, it's not Love, it;s Infatuation.

Love is when you don't know why you seemed to be attracted to that person.

(When you read this post, I know you might come across alot of errors, grammatically or even spelling wise. Actually I'm too lazy right now to proofread it, so just don't curse me. Hahah.)
It's time people start seeing the world in a different point of view, BECAUSE 99% of those around me? Are lifeless people. No offence, my dear ones, but seriously, all most people do is, live for duty's sake. No, I'm not saying that we should break all rules and live like there's no tomorrow, but hey! Start thinking outside the quadrilateral parallelogram? LOL. The world is a huge place, so big, that more than half of it is still yet to be discovered. Sure, we need to study, good grades ensures great future, but study, study, study, and not learning anything, what is the point of that? Like how many people actually step outside at night and stare at the beautiful star-strewn sky? How many actually close their eyes, and hear the music within the breeze? Most people don't give a damn. And I would consider those who wake up super late, like in the late afternoon, even more lifeless. Again, no offense. But seriously? If you spend all your time stuck within four walls, sleeping, and then stuck in front of the computer killing virtual animations to gain points, you will never go far. That doesn't mean, I have something against gamers. Trust me, my bros knows how I love to play games, computer games, playstation, phones.. But I'm no addict. You might be the smartest person in the class, but does it help, if you can't communicate and think from a different perspective? And no, I'm not saying I'm gonna rule the world and be the next president of the United States thing. That, is even more ridiculous, when you dream of power alone, but not bringing a better change to the world. I mean, what's the use if you are gonna be famous and the next Hitler, but there was never any good in what you do?? This is lifeless people. Think for a minute. Life's not all about studies, work, duties, food. It's beyond that. Quoting from Lion King: See Beyond What You See. Imaginations are given to us, to act as a vehicle to our dreams. Walt Disney? He utilised his imaginations so well, that now, he as paved a path for imaginations of many! You know why I love reading fantasy and young adult novels? The imagination and creative ideas beneath those book covers are simply outstanding, it actually brings me to a whole different world, because when I read, I don't JUST read, I live in it. And music! Music saves lives. Sure different people have different music preference. I tell you mine. I am a die-hard Eminem fan, AND I love love love Justin Bieber. I adoreeeeee Taylor Swift, but I love rock genre. I listen to English AND Latin. See the variety in it? As long it's good music, it deserves credit. Because I have so many favourite and different variety, I actually live in everything. And it's amazing. Like I'm the same girl who enjoys collecting Barbie till now, but gets totally turned on with Formula One and it's roaring engines. I'm living the life! Yeah you might go, look who's talking, the emo freak. Hahah, I know, if you read my blog often enough, you see me emoing alot like ALOT these days. But me emoing? I have a reason. Make that reasons. Seriously if you know my story, you would be in tears. And only two people actually do. One kept me sane through everything I experienced, and another was actually moved in tears. But when you see me, from the way I talked and smiled and laughed, you think there's nothing wrong with me. And there is where you make your terrible terrible mistake. Don't judge a book by it's cover, because a smile can I hide so much, Haha, And you see, I still am standing straight, staying strong. I think only once, I could hardly smile and talked to no one, people were curious. I'm sorry, but that was the day, I crumbled even more. But, I won't fall apart publicly like that again. Hahah. No one needs to know my story, especially if it's a sad one. But I know whatever that I go through now actually makes me stronger, cause her, I'm still alive right! Like the immunisation system in our body, So anyway, I just want people to open their eyes and see everything differently. And think. Why are you living now? After all you live only once. And don't be afraid to dream. I am a big dreamer, and so is my best friend. And we are always coming up with explosive stuffs everyday with those dreams. So that is what happens when two dreamers come together. The world is more brighter, more colourful! Oh yeahhh and the dream team.:D One is a team that is gonna fashion the world the two of us believed in whether others agree or not, another team is to fight for the mutual ambition in the same path we are taking it. But obviously, the first one, is an unbeatable combination, a Godsend idea. And I'm becoming wiser.XD I have changed alot in the past six months. I used to be a lifeless person, but now with some help, I know what is going on, and what life really is. You never see me more happier and childishly, at that, everyday. Aaaaand I can think for myself.XD Hahah I'm no longer the girl who sees herself as a doctor in the future, I have weighed my options, made my decision, and I want to make a difference in the world. And I am gonna take a part that will help me achieve it. God is great, he knows what he's doing when he is aiding me wherever he should. He gave me freewill, but he also gave me his blessings along my path. And I'm very happy and thankful, because I know I won't be that lifeless person I used to be. And I'm not the same as the others. Those who are too blinded by duty. I love my life and I want to enjoy it.:)
And I think I'm starting to enjoy college. At first, I felt claustrophobic in my own class. Hahah. Not in the physical sense of being trapped by four walls, but mentally claustrophobic. Until I have awesome friends outside my classroom too. At least it makes college more homely. And to know you are so influential, it's amazing! Cause I know I am influencing Kern Yen these days! LOL. And Vincent is coming up with imaginations even I didn't phantom. How on earth do I make him understand that it's nothing actually, I don't know. Jeesh.

And SMILE. Even to a stranger. It might just make their day. And it makes you even more beautiful. It's not like you are gonna lose anything. You will just gain more friends. And you get to live outside the box. Ah, I love my life.:D

All Those Other Girls, They Are Beautiful, But Would They Write A Song For You?

This is the HAPPY PART of me. I have no intention in straying from the happy part even though it's just 10% of me. So yeahhhh...
It's pure delight to watch Barcelona play, I tell you. Amazing. They are such wonderful warriors. Love them.
Anyway, they made it to the semis of Champion's League! Will face their num 1 nemesis of course.:) Real Madrid. To tell you the truth, the La Liga, is the best league in the world. THE BEST. And yeah, Premier league actually sucks. The reason as to why it is famous is of course thanks to being in London and all, English language, the universal language brings about a wider publicity. Anyway, now that Barca just cruised into the semis, I say Viva, Barcelona, Vamos! I'm so proud of them.:) For those who thinks the world revolves around Man Utd, I say: Try watching Barca's game. You may deny it, but your heart can't lie.=P

Bad, bad luck for the Fernandos' these days. Verdasco loses, Nadal won.:) Torres gets more haters. Don't worry, Fernando, I'm here! Let haters be. It shows they don't have a heart. Oh yeah, it's the Chinese Grand Prix tomorrow! Good luck, Lewis. Will pray for you. And you, are simply amazing, because you never gave up. You, Fernando, Nando, Rafa, you guys, I worship you.:) Thanks for giving me hope, and the believe. YOU ARE INCREDIBLE.:) Cause you are amaaaaaazing, just the way you are. I'm feeling revved up for F1 tomorrow! Sebastian Vettel, I know I love you, but I love my Mclaren guys even more, cause they are AMAAAAZING, so prepare to be kicked in the ass this week darling. Oh, I still love you Seb, don't worry. But I loveee you even MORE, Lew!XD If only Lew and Seb were in the same team. BUT NO WAY AM I CONSENTING TO THE RUMOURS ABOUT LEW LEAVING TO RED BULL!

The Story Of Us: Happy Returns Of The Day, Waniey!

Waniey Johari, Waniey Jacques, Waniey Hardin!
Happy Happy Eighteenth, my girl!
It's your big big day, and I hope you're having an amazing amazing time.
You have been an awesome friend throughout the years, and I miss you so much~!
We have enjoyed so many occasions together, and you're definitely one of those crazay psychomaniacs like me, and the best part is: I can count on you anytime, and anywhere.
If we step back in time, bet you remember those times, we spent swooning over Zak Bagans? Me teasing you of Aaron! BOTH the Aarons in fact. The gay one, and the chicken one.:D You loved loved them both, don't you? And you were always my other half! Remember Richard Herrera and Richard Hardin? Herrera's mine, yours Hardin!(Though what you see in Hardin, I have NO IDEA. Herrera's the perfectionist, duh!)XD
And the story books we used to read? Fantasy young adult novel. And how Adibah corrupts you with that whateverthenameis books. Seriously, totally totally X-RATED! Too x-rated that it's actually permanently etched in your head. Ugh. But instead, remember the book I introduced you to? EVERMORE! It's one of the best books I've read, seriously, it's suchaaaaaa beautiful story, don't you think? And Damen Auguste, so drool-worthy! We loved it so much! And we had our quarrels over the year. Me getting mad at you, blah blah blah... I miss it all! And all that laughs with Mai, Ern, Shangee, Ama... And what the heck, you even started a family tree! The first in MGS Klang? Hahah! And so many fights with your husband!XP Poor Siew Ern, tergadai di tengah-tengah. LOL.  And Sze Yen! Funny how grandma and cucu can fight over a guy. But at the end of the day, he's mine! Hahah, I loved how our childishness marked our time in school, and now we can sit and think about it. You were the Mafia's wife, but a failure of one. HAHAH. Waniey can never be mafia-ish. My recess time in school? You made the best of it. In fact, I think being the awesome traffic councillor and all and not having to do anything during recess, I spent MOST of the time with you! Loads of gossips and stuffs. No, more like entertainment review? I GOT YOU HOOKED TO THE AMAZING RACE ASIA BECAUSE OF THE RICHES IN FACT!
But the important thing is: You made my life beautiful all those years, and I love you for being one of the greatest friends I could have. You have always listened to my problems and your advices will always be treasured, because they are too priceless. We might be different, but in heart, we are one and the same. I miss you so much, and hopefully, you will always remember the times and things we shared, not just between us, but with Ama, Mai and especially Siew Ern too. Everything started out in 3 Telus, but I really treasured the moments in Form 4 and 5 and ironically, we weren't even in the same class! Guess that's what meant by distance is no barrier to, in this case, the greatest friendship on earth! Love you, Waniey Joe, always have, always will.:)
If there's one thing I could give you now, it would be all the red tulips in the world, because you know what it means:) Love ya!

You Are My One In 6 Billion

These days I've been in a complete state of confusion. Sometimes, my mum will be wondering what the hell am I doing, pacing around the house like a lost soul. And then, there's the strain in me. And sometimes, what people say, it might have been intended as a light-hearted exchange, but for me, it hurt more deeper than it should have. And there's me banging the walls. And when you try so very hard to forget someone, or something, anything, somehow it invades your dreams. And when you wake up, you feel so upset, because it felt real. And it's stuck in your head for the rest of the day, because you just can't push it away, you think it's real., and no, the thing that happened in my dreams, is not a bad thing at all, but because it's good, I know it will happen to me ever. That's what makes me upset. And not to forget how paranoid I am: I worry about stuffs most people don't give a damn. How do you stop something you refuse your heart to feel, but to late, it's already stuck? I'm in huge dilemma. And that feeling when you don't want to lose something. As much paranoid and troubled-headed I can be, I still must say, thank God I'm not like some people out there. People who cares for themselves alone. And self-absorbed people. People, who well, the think they are gonna rule the world, but the couldn't care less about other people. Especially people who sees the world in a single view. How boring and narrow-minded can they be? Then again, we all have different minds and hearts.
Music, keeps me sane. I listen to a variety genres, but if they are good, then they are good. These days, I have been stucked with all the songs Pia Toscano had sung in AI. I don't know why, but I just fell for her voice. Recent downloads in my iPod: Pia Toscano and James Durbin.=)

Hols are for indulging myself in story books. LOADS OF THEM. Recently my aunty came over, apparently she wanted to give me a treat for my awesome results(yeah right), and she came up with so many suggestions, EXPENSIVE suggestions. Yeah, she's super-loaded and all, (7 BMWs, I tell you!), but I am always uncomfortable when someone gets me something expensive. Like the time in 5D, when my psychomaniac of friends got me that huge teddy bear, I didn't know how to accept it. And so many times, my dad's clients offered to buy me stuffs, I just couldn't accept it! Okay back to the topic, so she was so insistent, even after a rather expensive dinner and dessert, so I just said I want books. She wasn't shocked of course, she knew how much I love them. And yeah, so now I have a collection of unread books, which I am going through now, and the By Midnight book is actually really good! Like the way-better version of Twilight. And loads more. And funnily, this time I didn't stick to the Young Adult fantasy teen genre alone.
And what's with me and marriage these days? LOL. Bruno Mars, I blame you!=P
It drives me mad when I don't know everything, and I want to. Because I'm afraid of being dead wrong. What if I am? I will never forgive myself.:)
I need a magical wand now.

Let's follow our hearts and make our own love story. Let's be the modern Cinderella and Prince Charming, let's be the perfect version of Bella and Edward, let's bring Romeo and Juliet to a whole new level, let's show the world what it really is, and spread it, not just because two is better than one, but because the more the merrier. After all the world is a better place with love.