Now You're In Each Other's Face, Spewing Venom, And These Words, When You Spit 'Em

Today was an extremely crazy day! For a Monday, I must say it's shockingly hyper! LOL. College wasn't bad, EVEN IF IT'S GOOD, I'm NEVER gonna mention. I so wanna go back to school! Mgs, please take me back, pleaaaaase? Right. Who am I kidding huh? LOL. The weather practically grilled us, and no I' m not gonna mention anything about that ridiculouslysickeningstupididioticbrainlessmoronicdumbass of a bus driver we got. Look at our fate. It's shiteous. He is SO SICKENINGLY.... Nope, I'm not gonna mention HIM. Today, Rachel Saw and Wei Wei have gone officially MAD after a chicken burger. They were RAVING! And the plot thickens in the Weng Ming-James drama.:) Apparently, James full chinese name is Ng Wen Wei, which is super similar to Ng Weng Ming.XD What a match! They were made for each other. And Weng Ming is gonna kill me for this. Well, they said veangance is sweet, that's for insulting Torres!
And we got back the Chem test paper we did last week and... I FEEL SO STUPID! Why oh why? I am so not serious with my studies. I'm gonna DIEEE. But not for now. No thinking about it NOW.
Anyway, recently I am engaged in so many debates about our music choices and artists. And I don't know WHY?
. As most of my close friends would know,
I AM AN EMINEM ADDICT. I am so in love with his songs, his rap, his energy, his EVERYTHING, that he has become a must in my daily routine.
And unfortunately some people CAN'T believe that. Sadly. I LOVE EMINEM SO MUCH, he's practically my GOD. Insults from Rahupathi about him ain't gonna knock my love for him, so don't try too hard.XD And James Ng, Eminem is NOT bullshit! Ergh. Haters, GET. A. LIFE. Eminem is practically my god. The great legend. He is amazing just the way he is.
And because of this obsession, we kinda create our very own group in the bus we travelled back and forth to Taylors: The Bus-ers. LOL. Chris came up with the name. And in this group, each of us have like our own Avatar in the form of artist: and I'm, surprise, surprise, EMINEM! Lol. Chris is Bruno Mars, Kern Yen is Katy Perry, Rahul is MARIAH CAREY (Can you believe it???),Vincent is Rihanna. LOL. We are having sooo much fun I can tell you, with the daily debates, and Rahul trying to defend Mariah Carey against 3 of us, Kern Yen, me and Chris. haha.
And in class, PM12, Weng Ming is reaaaallly obsessed of Lady Gaga! lol. I don't know WHY but he says she's his god?? LOL. I must say Gaga's new song is AMAZING though. That got him brimming with delight.*shakes head* James content himself with constantly hitting on Ming. Ah, the both of them, what a delight to watch!
And Pravindra is trying to make me feel stupid with HIS incredible knowledge in music. And no I do not hate Akon., and neither don't I dislike him because of colour prejudice, the irony, haha, but he never appealed to me? So yeah. And I loveee rap, AND I love Taylor Swift, why even Justin Bieber! So you see, a mixed taste in music. And Linkin Park, Maroon 5! And a number of others. So, SORRY if my taste don't match much of YOUR party songs-taste. LOL. Btw, I do LOVE  Flo Rida, Adam Lambert(Love? hell, I'm crazay of him!), Enrique Iglesias (LOVEEEE LOVE LOVE him!), Katy Perry and Bruno Marsss! And a number of others. So, I'm a balanced person?
LOL.
But I must say, what with the constant insult and lashing towards Eminem these days,
I LOVE HIM, HIS MUSIC. HE IS INCREDIBLE IN EVERY WAY. HATERS, wake up??

How can anyone NOT love him? Oh wait, even Justin Bieber have fanatic... HATERS. So does Eminem. The world's going mad. Seriously? Justin Bieber deserves every credit that comes his way, so STOP with the insult. I bet you're not HALF as good as him. Oh wait, they are jealous. Cause of his windfall of fame. Get a life? He worked to his fame. You? Still stuck in your life. See the difference? And the SAME goes to the GREAAAAT Eminem. He is a legend. My god, my legend, my idol, my drug.:)

I'm In Pieces, Seems Like Peace Is The Only Thing I Never Know

And now I'm feeling really miserable. Is everything ending now? I don't want it too. Things go wrong,  feel down. My life's feels like it's bearing too much weight. And there's nobody to look to. I feel like I'm totally losing my mind these days. I need an escapade. Immediately. Is there anything left to help me to put it all right? God save my soul. I might even be concealing a mental illness, so say some psychiatrist. Cause a smile conceals everything, doesn't it? Or even my laugh. My jokes. You gotta look beyond to see is it for real? I live in riddles, you find me in riddles, but how many will solve my riddles. I'm sorry if my words these days haven't been tactful for some reason, cause I'm holding back, I'm pushing everything, but I'm not going anywhere either.
I find it hard these days to hold myself without falling to pieces. So many times, so my reasons, so much of tears.
I need a therapy. I need someone.

You know when you know when that someone gets to see beyond that broken smile. They are for keepers.


They say you are living for yourself, everything you do is for yourself and no one else, so don't give a damn about what others say or feel. But how is that possible when you feel what you're doing for others IS what you're doing for yourself? It comes to the same thing. 


I'm too afraid to lose you. Please don't leave me? I know it doesn't make any sense. But I'm still afraid.

Don't Play Adult, Just Be A Kid

We have a new uprising star. LOL! This small kid is nothing short of hilarity at it's peak! He is SO CUTE! He make a better philosopher than a rapper though. HAHAHA! Seriously, in my wake of food poisoning, he made my day! He is so incredibly cute. He is matured and childish enough for an eight year old, but that doesn't matter, he's cute!

MattyB! The small, adorable, innocent version of Eminem.:)

Na Na Na.... You Are Older Than Moi

I would love to wish two reaaallly awesome people whose birthday falls this week, in two consecutive days of course:)
Dear Afiqah Sahar a.k.a Fiqah Murray,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MY OH-SO-AWESOME FRIEND!
Our tennis voyages have been so completely amazing and super fun, had it not been for you!! May god bless you always, and let us continue our adventures venturing into the Spanish realm, and let's take on Roland Garros together! I bet we can give Mike and Bob Bryan a run for their money when we play against them. LOL.
And honey, you MUST see exactly WHY Alex O Loughlin is just absolutely smolderingly amazing. So, I welcome you to my side. Loving you now, and always. Never EVER you DARE forget me, or else I will sent Rafael Nadal to skewer you. LOL. You have been this awesome teammate and roommate in various occasion, and I'm hoping we shall continue as long as we live, cause we SO gotta take over the world!:D Continue rocking you crazay girl!XD

Dear Sofiaaaaaaah!
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY EIGHTEENTH!
Funny how I never seemed to bump into you while in school.
Oh well, who needs school when you have Facebook and Sam Tsui? LOL.
Seriously, I am happy to know you, especially as one crazy human, and our mutual obsession over Sam Tsui should answer to it.
Don't try too hard taking him from me, honey!XD
Anyways, hope you're having a blasting birthday, ad stay the same always.
Jangan emo-emo banyak la. Life's too short, don't hide yourself in regret, love yourself always.XD
God bless youuuu!

To Afiqah, I suppose this would be the suit Andy will be wearing when he escorts YOU to the wedding of the century?XD

I think I concede defeat, Sofiah, you can have him.XD causeeeee......

who needs him when.....

you have him??

HAHA! Meet Fernando Verdasco, who is awesome and WHO am so badly wishing he would hit the finals and start WINNING.=)

Azizulhasni Awang, A Real Hero With Real Grit

Azizulhasni Awang is the best thing that could happen to Malaysia after Datuk Lee Chong Wei and Datuk Nicol David. I have always been a big fan of him, and he is absolutely amazing in every way. Nicknamed the 'Pocket Rocket' I must say he has never failed to impress us, and for someone like him, he brings awesomeness to new heights. He has given multiple Olympic and world champ Chris Hoy a run for his money too many times, and that's just how amazing he is. And then came the news about what happened at the cycling championship in Manchester. I was seriously moved to tears! He's a miracle, this guy is! He was leading the championships, and he needed a good result to once again clinch the overall title for the third consecutive time, and he did it. But that wasn't the miracle behind his story. He was involved in a crash caused by a Spaniard, and the crash caused a chain reaction which caused other racers to fall as well, but this Malaysian hero actually GOT UP AND RACED TO THE FINISH LINE WITH A SPLINTER STICKING INTO HIS CALF! He was severely injured but our man here proved NOTHING is impossible. Malaysians reveled in his victory, the world stunned by his determination, which won him the overall title. His story is so amazing, the British and Australian and the Spanish media were raving! No words could describe what a true hero and amazing sportsman he is. We are indeed very proud of him. He just took extreme and determination to new heights. Congrats, Azizul! Get well soon. We don't want to lose you for sure. And thanks for showing the world what real determination, and fighting spirit is.

                 No words for sure could describe the pain he went through. God, be with him.

Oh Baby, I Was Born This Way!

I think I might completely lose my mind any of these days. So many things, so much of emotions, I feel like dying. Not to mention, my doomday is nearing.
Oh God, if there's one thing I could ask you to grant it, it would be, can you please slow down the time?(except for in classes, then it can zap past, I don't mind). The rate of time is incredibly fast! It's the 21st of February already I tell you! I still remembered the 1st of January like it was yesterday.Where did all those moments go to? All I know is that in that period of time, nearly two months, I totally regret starting college so early. I rather sit at home, try out new things, learn more, and built my intelligence level, which yes, I know is beyond comparable, but still, we should reach for the stars. Haha. I dread  every morning, the fact I had to get out of bed, and look forward to an entirely long day. Which was never something to look forward to. A-levels, is a silent killer. I hate it so badly! If only I could turn back time. But sadly it's not within my power. Oh god. I think mostly the reason why I hate A-levels is because of some of my lecturers. I know, it's not right to say so, but it's the truth. For one, I really hate my Bio lecturer. He is not motivating to study, instead, he's discouraging us. He makes Biology sounds like a subject that is a big impossible. I even hate the way he teaches! I'm not expecting a secondary level of teaching, no, but I expected it to be an efficient college standard, like Taylor's name. I was wrong. There aren't even a single hot or really cool lecturer we could get motivated of. And I get jealous when Siew Ern mentions how awesomely hot HER Bio teacher is. I feel a complete urge to move to Sunway now. Especially when Eric's gonna be there in June, as he fly all the way from Sarawak. I kinda missed him.:) Anyway, Taylors' no longer appeal me. The building gives an impression of a normal school one, we have to climb all the way to the fourth floor almost everyday, and I have to hear Rachel's constant complains on why for a glam college like Taylors' they don't have escalators or elevators, we don't have lecturers from overseas, neither do we have much of international students, and especially waiting for the damn bus to bring us back and forth everyday is the worse thing I have experienced in my life, and I'm pretty much lost in most of my subject, I feel stupid, and I practically hate everything about college. Please la, people say, you gotta be optimistic, be positive, it will be alright, but nothing can deny the truth. As you know I'm a very truthful person. So I shall not lie. Right.
And right now I'm having this terrible terrible stomachache which is practically murderous, and the suffering is ohsotorturous, and my idiotic brothers only made it worse by saying its SPM RESULT FEVER. Those idiotic brats! And they say that they are NEVER gonna let it rest. Until the doomday itself. Which is about anytime now. Ahhh. And I was going crazay! I made them go nuts by singing I need a doctor, which is HONESTLY what I feel now. Haha. Rachel actually asked if I got pregnant. LOL. And some nut I know(Pravindra Kumar!) says I was being naughty with Nando. What the hell?? Brilliant, Mr. Doctor. Frontpage headlines tomorrow. Suffering in this stomach cramps not only causes you pain, it makes you go crazy. If I think I was crazy. a certain SOMEONE was off his rockers just because of lack of food!. Hmph!
In fact I'm going crazay everyday, because:
1. The fact I'm going to college.
2. The load of homeworks everyday.
3. The subjects themselves which have made some kind of conspiracy to murder me.
4. The bus driver.
5. Where is Formula One season??
6.James and Weng Ming's love affair.
7. James being so attracted to Weng Ming he always wanna be with him. LOL.
8. Sam Tsui-The obssesion!:)
9. Pravindra Kumar, my psychotic best friend and his delusions.(Oh look, you'RE number nine!)
10. Me, myself, and I. La, la, la....
I love my life. And I hate it too. My awesome life.=P

Atomic Expression

I don't know why or what makes people ask me this question:

"Do you have a boyfriend?"

And I would go...

"Yeah! You don't know? How come? Jeesh, which cave have you been hiding in?? The whole world knows!"

And they will be like..

"Seriously? Omg.. Sorry la. Who ah? Tell me.."

He's like the most amazing guy on planet Earth?

"Who, who?"

"Go and google him.up: Fernando Verdasco."

Wow.

Too many times, same questions, same answers, and I never got tired. Cause he's Fernando Verdasco! I also had this urge to explain about my infidelity with Richard Herrera, Fernando Torres, Lewis Hamilton and Rafael Nadal, but then I figured, it would probably be to much for them to digest. LOL.

Ahhhh, back to college tomorrow. I don't want to! Oh and I don't think I wanna become a doctor anymore. LOL. I changed my mind a million times, and it ain't gonna stop.:)

Cause God Makes No Mistakes

This is an INCREDIBLE cover by a really young aspiring singer. She's only ten! I practically fell in love with the song because of her! Not to mention Lady Gaga was moved to tears watching it. Because it really was beautiful. She highlighted the meaning of the song beautifully.:)
Mabuhay, Maria Aragon!
We are looking forward for more of this.:)

When Darkness Turns To Light, It Ends Tonight

My mind is in a state of confusion worst than ever. I don't know what am I doing, I don't understand what's happening, and I don't know why are all this happening. Is this the normal life everyone's going through? Then why are there too many unsolved riddles and puzzles all around me? Can't everything just fall into place rather than me falling into pieces? I don't understand much about me either. I can hardly say I'm just like everyone else. Cause I'm anything but ordinary. Still... I'm a girl. I have bad temper which flares up at random time. I have only a thin thread of patience holding me in one piece all the time. I break down easily. I'm a klutz, I'm extremely clumsy. I knock over things on the dining table too frequently. I constantly live in a strain, which might tear me apart anytime. So often I cry myself to sleep. I'm a big dreamer. I don't just dream about luxury and power like many people would, like you know, I'mgonnabethepresidentofunitedstatesoneday, no. My dreams are way different. I practically hope life would be as the movies had put it. I grew up with fairytales. I believe in magic, fairies, elves, goblins, magic portals, goddesses.. I talk to myself, I laugh myself, I cry myself. I am in love with the rain, the stars and the wind. I allow myself to be played, and I regret, but I fall all over again. I procrastinate, I dream of the impossible. And I kick myself for being me. I cry for people who do not know me, I cry for their stories. I pray for those who needed it, and someone thinks I'm being stupid. I twirl and dance most of the time, and I get grilled for that. I fall, clumsily, alot. I am extremely sensitive, and emotional when it comes to some things. I get sucked into my story books which are all fantasy genres that I don't know the difference between reality and fantasy. And my obsessions are unrivaled to anyone else. I can be extremely serious, and very playful in two consecutive minutes. I wish I can be like the rest, but at the same time I wish I am not. I am a girl, a different one, and I'm not sure is it good or bad. I was blogging this while Born This Way by Lady Gaga was playing from my iTunes list, and I think she has a point.  I'm on the right track baby, I was born this way. Oh, well. I'm still confused.

You Better Lose Yourself In The Music, The Moment You Own It, You Better Never Let It Go

The last two days have been an entire roller-coaster, but let's just stick to the fun part. Haha. My classmates are a group of horny perverted human being ever existed. LOL. Me, Rachel, and Wei Wei have been laughing out so much, it's unbelievable! It mostly because of the guys in my class. Especially Weng Ming and James. Haha! The chemistry between them, EXPLOSIVE! You couldn't find a better pair than this two. They are awesome.:) Apparently, they are seemingly forming a bond really strong these days, because James seemed content to be at Weng Ming a.k.a Shawn's side at all times. Weng Ming, doesn't really feel happy about it though. LOL. We all agree, we as in me, Ray, Wei, Wee Miin, Jason, and Shaun Wee, that James is really attracted to Weng Ming, in many ways, but god knows what. James always goes: "Weng Ming! I wanna go with you!", "Weng Ming! I be your teammate!" "Weng Ming, this... Weng Ming! that.." How sweet. And yesterday, apparently when we brought the topic of Cristiano Ronaldo being a father and all that surrogate mother story, James claimed, all of sudden, he wants to be a surrogate FATHER. And when asked, how is that exactly, he said he will be keeping sperms. We were laughing so hard, I think Mr Lau wasn't too please. What a way to start college. Ending in the bad record of our Mathematics lecturer. Lol. Worse, was went out of sudden, James said he would like to keep Weng Ming's sperms. HAHAHA! I swear the look on Weng Ming's face was simply priceless! And after that, we noticed James' increasing interest in Weng Ming AND Weng Ming's epic failure of trying to avoid him. They are so cute together! James look as if he's willing to do anything for Weng Ming. So dear Weng Ming, don't you see, the more you avoid him, the more he is attracted to you. Like the negative and positive charges. Like the north and south pole. HAHA. James even said, " I prefer tall guys" , he's even willing to go home with Weng Ming to scrub him. Hahaha! I swear the rest of us were going nuts laughing. And I swear Weng Ming is gonna murder me when he reads this, and James, DO NOT READ THIS. Lol. I tell you, our class couldn't be any crazier. It's so much fun! Not to mention we do become Dr. Evil when it comes to teasing a "gedik" girl in our class. Haha. Man, are we mean or mean? I had so much of fun with these guys, but at the same time I must express my dissatisfaction towards  some of my classmates. Seriously, it's the voting day to choose our student council, and everyone was sent to the Web to vote, but these few classmates of mine, firstly, they refused, and then when they are supposed to be voting they went to eat. When asked on why did n't they vote, they gave no logical answer. Seriously, do you have a life? Your act I swear is so sickening, no wonder you guys were always the isolated part of our class, and becoming a laughing stock. Selfish, much? Jeesh. They annoy the crap outta me, I'm sorry. I never disliked anyone so much, but this is really unacceptable. Like, hello? Oh well.
I'm havng so much fun, that.. I LEFT MY iPOD AND MY ADDICTED STORY BOOK CURRENTLY, THE GODDESS OF THE ROSE AT THE LIBRARY. Taylors' library. How DUMB can I be? Ugh! But thanks to my ohsoawesomelyamazing friends, Weng Ming, Shaun, Ray, and Wei, it's all SAFE! And the goddess(me of course) is so happy, and everyone lives happily ever after! Yay! The end. I mahu tengok my favourite show, so, for now this is all I can update, so, sorry honey! Haha. I know you miss me, but continue staring at my blog EVERYDAY, the goddess might reward you with something.:) Love ya, Lai Siew Ern!:)

He's Choking How, Everybody's Joking Now, The Clock's Run Out, Time's Up Over, Bloah!

It's been a bad  sad day for Eminem, Fernando and me.

Can you believe that the man, nominated for  10, yes ten! Grammy awards, he only walked away with two. Ridiculous! I mean, come on! The Grammy has thwarted him three times, so not fair. Yet, I believed the best Grammy performance has to be Eminem's. Explosive. What with awesome Love The Way You Lie, which is no matter how the Grammy's had put it, is the best 2010 song, and followed up by the current song I'm so obsessed of: I Need A Doctor. The performance was... I want more! And Justin Bieber, put on an impressive performance. Impressive, amazing. The collaboration with Jaden Smith? Hot! And his dance with Usher was fantastic! Will Smith was so proud.:) Yet, people, open your eyes. Eminem, aka Marshall Mathers, is practically legendary. The best rapper in the world. A complicated life story, and his mystery, his power of voice, makes me love him more.
AND...
Nando, lost. He's... Amazing just the way he is. Hello, he entered the finals? Yeah! He did well:) He always does.
And I'm.... leaving to somewhere I can't be reached. At least there, I can choose what I want by myself. I will know when it comes. Here, I need to wait. When, if time comes. When I know.

Happy Valentines!

And it's Valentine's Day tomorrow. I tell you... this celebration sure has the entire world raving mad! Just the past one week, I was rained with people, yeah there were alot of them sharing their hearts desires, their exciting prospect of being in a relationship, or crushes, blah blah blah. Wow. I'm left dumbfounded however. Because its all getting hyper for Valentines. For me, the celebration is but another day. Another day in college. Sighs.
But I should be happy for a number of my friends who was caught in the love-bait. Haha. And with that, I can tell they are all delusional now. Especially, that best friend of mine? Yeah, you. You know who you are:) I'm relatively shocked actually, by the fact that, you were so.. sensible? Yeah. But what happened to you now? Love overhauled that brain of yours. HAHA. You have never been like this last year, and now.. I'm happy for you, honey. Haha. And I suppose that new-found love of yours, is a great addition to your life. Congrats. Seriously, what is the power of love such that people turn crazy? Well it's preferable if I just do not be bothered by it.
Anyway, this year I have decided to celebrate Valentines anyway.
With Fernando Verdasco Carmona!
I know I am crazay.
Like I care?
Of course I don't.
Because I am deeply and madly in love with Fernando Verdasco.
But I feel guilty, because things are complicated at the moment with Fernando Torres.
And I'm crushing badly on Rafael Nadal.
And not to mention cheating on Lewis Hamilton?
But I'm missing my man Rich Herrera! Oh boy, now I remember how I used to go gaga over him, I still do! I miss his smile, his smart-ass comments, his sense of humour, his hot posture, HIM. I love Rich Herrera.
Complicated, everything isn't it?
SO dude, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, so you see... I'm TAKEN. I am totally in love with my loves, Fernando Verdasco, Fernando Torres, Rafael Nadal, Lewis Hamilton AND Richard Herrera. Please lar, who do you think you are to ask me out? I have taste, and you SO don't meet my requirements, not even a bit. So get a life, and try to act, and think properly for once. You SO suck. I mean, C'mon! I'm not the first one to have wanting to say it. I really should keep in mind: I shouldn't pay attention to attention-seeking fools! Yes, I shouldn't. Wow, it sounds sadistic and all, I know, but some people, should learn to live.
On the other hand, seems like I'm up for  classy Valentine dates:)
Ah, the world sure is beautiful, don't ya think? It is! So many wonders, so many fantasies, so many dreams, I love my life! See, I don't have to worry about pleasing my date, cause these dates I have ALWAYS please me, and they give me alot of things, that no ordinary guy could! So, I'm happy, just the way I am.=) And since I have loads of dates tomorrow, not to mention classy hot ones, be jealous:) My boyfriends hotter than yours.=P

To everyone I love, and to those around me, who have never failed to make my life a special one as it is, thank you so much for being part of my life. And dear God, you are always the best part of my life. Thank you for all your blessings and love.

Happy Valentines.:)

I Would Liked To Know What Is There Between Your Lines

Today was a day of adventures. LOL. It was a GREAT day I must say.
Cause firstly...
I PASSED MY UNDANG TEST! I was RELIEVED.
Cause I didn't do much studying. I was lazy? Yeah. I mean, I felt those stuffs in the book: A complete BORE. How do they expect us to...? Oh well.
So, that was that. Ah, the ecstasy. Cause I know that if I had to re-sit for it, I would have collapse. Shudders.
And...
The outing at Aeon, was AWESOME! To be reunited, it was... A walk down memory lane. Like we are back in school. Just like in school. The same gang, the same laughters, the same lame jokes, the same faces, the same bond. They were all there, Ama, Ray, Ern, Waniey, Fiqah, V, Li Po, Wei, Li Peng, meeting up at McD. Oh yeahh... Which reminded me of the prank I pulled cause everyone was oh-so-surprise by my turn up, when I said I couldn't make it. And the bashings I got from Ama. And the threats from Ern. Haha. Memories.:) It never gets old, all this pranks:) But we had a nice day out, that's for sure. And Yogi Bear. I'm not a fan of it, I must say. But what with sitting next to Fiqah, god, it was hilarious! She was like, " Ada press conference dalam hutan??" Ahaha! The madness. It was sad when I left, I want more! Seeing them all again makes me miss school so badly, now I'm tearing up. We had so much fun, in class, in the canteen, in the lab, during assembly, in hall, during talks, and I want them back so badly. But now it's gone... I have to move on, I suppose. I'm looking forward for the future:) I love you guys so much, you know?XD
And Nando... HE IS INCREÍBLE.:) He managed to beat Delpo(Juan Martin Del Potro) 6-4 6-4, and you know WHY he is simply amazing. Beyond amazing, actually.:) I was jumping. The ecstasy was explosive! Nice to see you back, my love.:)

I Couldn't, Even If I So Friggin' Want To.

Like it supposed to be my damn fault.
I'm sorry, I couldn't do ANYTHING.
It's so.. Heart-wrenching.
I tried.
I MADE my dad to call the centre or whatever.
I have no damn choice.
I'm sorry.
Great, now she doesn't wanna talk to me, for things I didn't do.
You oughta know by now..
I HAVE A SUCKY LUCK.
In my world, NOTHING ever prosper.
I'm so sorry for not being able to attend the gathering, I will try though.:(

Dear Lord Prawn, Many More Happy Returns Of The Day.

My day:
I SHOULD stop procrastinating. I should LEARN to do homework on time. I SHOULD not be digging my own grave. But that's what I'm doing! This is BAD. Real bad. Ah, the pressure. I have lost interest in my studies, somehow. But one word of this to my parents and I know The Star headlines news tomorrow will read: " Parents Convicted Over Murder Of Teen Daughter For Speaking Her Mind" or something like that. And then...
Mr Ari, our absolutely wonderful Moral Education teacher, will drive the class MAD with his constant, " Parents killing daughter over what she said, ethical or not ethical?" And everyone will have to answer, "It depends on, REASONING..." Godddd. Don't worry, I don't intend to prepare my deathbed just yet. I know I will have many people missing me oh-so-badly then, and being such a considerate, caring, and the most amazing friend anyone could have EVER had, I don't want anyone to cry for me, missing me so badly, till they are willing to lose their appetite over food, lose their sleep, and miss my drool-worthy chatters.XD Oh well, so for you beloved minions of mine, I shall continue fighting for my life. Jeesh, I'm beginning to sound like 'him'. Bad influence, you!
Therefore, I shall promise upon this oath of mine to forever work forward and stop thinking of homeworks as criminals lurking everywhere trying to bring me down. I shall be your master, the great goddess. Haha. Damn, my imagination's blowing up. And how I came to stuck upon SCIENCE subjects, I don't know. Sesat-ed. Oh well.
Today's a GREAT day, I loved it, and coming from me, that's like saying Manchester United is not a bad team. Yeah right. But today was nice. I mean, I caught on with everything my lecturers have said, keeping myself up-to-date. But I must say: I HATE HATE Thinking Skills. Weng Ming, I don't understand HOW could you EVER have the patience to do it and NEVER gave up. Ahhh. And yeaaaahh, Moral Education. Ugh. I would rather have it called Racism class. Jeesh. And what with the constant, "ethical or not ethical?" or " class, it's all based on your reasoning" or" in moral philosophy, there's no right or wrong, it's all based on? Based on what class? Yes, reaaaaasoninggggg." I tell you, I am gonna go MAD listening about the SAME sentences over and over again. And it might turn me into a murderer. Don't blame me, in my opinion that act IS ethical, see, I'm R-E-A-S-O-N-I-N-G. I'm saving a hundred and more students from the boring wrath of Dr-evil-who-is-racist-and-plans-to-take-on-the-nation-by-creating-an-army-through-us. And I will be known for my good deed to mankind and everybody lives happily ever after.:)
Anyway, now back to my real reason behind this post.
Dear Pravindra, today's your big day! Oh well, it's almost ending, but still! You're Eighteen! The passport to the adult world.:) But that doesn't mean you should be doing things you are NOT suppose too. HAHA. Chill, have fun! You always have. And thanks so very much for making my day too! I'm not used to it, but it was nice.:) I have to thank you for a LOT of things though. Like during my down times, you make me SEE. And that Liverpool vs Chelsea night, THANKS SO MUCH for lending a support for the oh-so-awesome Reds, you Devil! Ahaha. And my insomnia attacks. Oh my torturous. I am so VERY sorry if I have kept you awake by any chance. I'm hating THEM attacks. And the arguments we always have in sports! I have NO freaking idea why oh why you HAVE to be the complete opossite of me. Can you see Rafa Nadal is WAY better than Roger? And Red Bull? I say, go, Mclaren! And awesome Spain! And LIVERPOOL.=) But don't think I forgot those consoling thing you are so good at, when Nadal lost and Torres broke my heart. I know I haven't been myself because of them, and I'm sorry. I'm not taking it on you! Trust me. Oh yeah, and for giving me a good debate on various topics, even if you KNOW you're losing to the great me, it's all a very good practice ya know?:D Don't worry, I might consider letting you win one day.=) Anyway, thank you, my dear best friend:)

So,
Happy Eighteenth, Prawn! Stay the awesome you, always. 

I'm Not A Perfect Person, There's Many Things I Wish I Didn't Do.

Okay, this has got to so friggin' stop. I'm getting sick and tired of having to face all the condemning frenzy that's been going on about Fernando Torres. And apparently I am one of the few who stays to defend them. I know it broke me to see him in blue, but it tore me more to hear that banner of words saying to him " Once a hero in our heart. You are dead. Lying Judas." For god's sake, all this has to stop! Liverpool fans are acting as if Torres crushed the entire world in pursue of something evil? Yes, they did worshiped him like a god, entrusted him with support so strong, no one could get the through the barrier. But he has something that god has presented has presented everyone with. Free will. He has the choice to do whatever he wants to his life, and if he's not happy at Liverpool, do we have the right to entrap him? I don't think so. And I so want this to stop cause everytime I see those sharp words condemning him, degrading him, I break down. He's human too. Like Carragher said, good players come and go. How would he be feeling now? And after all he is a Spaniard, if he had been a Briton, I doubt no such act would be torturing him. He's still one of the best Spanish strikers the world have seen, one of the best Liverpool striker, and my best footballer. No one player can make an entirely huge impact on a club, so let him be. Nothing's gonna change except for Liverpool's meteoric rise. My heart reaches out to him every single damn time he's condemned, hurt, and it brings me down, cause he's my idol. I still worship him, always have, always will. And apparently according to you, you said because of his damn transfer, I'm taking it on you. I'm not! Okay, yeah it did affect me emotionally, but can't you see, my life's all topsy turvy now? I expected you to understand that. But I was wrong. I'm so sorry.  Sorry because you say, you're losing me to my abyss. It's nothing like. I'm just struggling to find a breather. Today's alright. Accept my apologies, will ya? I meant everything I've said.:)
I miss Richard Herrera so much! XD

And they can ask, who's hotter. Are you kidding me? Obviously the man at the front!XD

I miss the man in Black too! He's suppose to be playing this week. What a precious picture. A week before Nando got beaten by the man in jade green.:)

They Got The Ball Rolling, They Played, They Found The Net, They Celebrated And Torres Got Right In The Face.

A Liverpool showed they didn't need to be called as a TOP CLUB to be at their best. Amazing King Kenny Daglish!:D

That was one hell of a match I watched at midnight yesterday. Sat in front of the TV at 10.30 didn't know what to expect, and I was nervous. The moment I saw Torres in blue, I started hyperventilating. "Oh My Godddd..."
I was confused. I still can't stand the fact he left. It was all heartbreak when I saw his name in the Chelsea's line up. Oh well, life goes on, life goes on.
It was absolutely DISASTROUS for Nando yesterday. Poor guy. The first few moments I got a lil confused as to whom I'm supporting, don't get me wrong, I'm always a Liverpool die-hard. But you know, my heart races everytime Nando gets the ball, so when he got it, I was so happy, until he got it near the goalpost, and then.."OH  MY GOD, NO, NO NO!" and then..."Thank God." and then.."Nando, if you KNOW what's good for you, STAY THERE, DO NOT DO ANYTHING,". And when he got in the face from Agger I was like" Good one, Agger!" then " Oh damn, Nando! Oh my godd.. Chill, honey..". I was going delusional. Psychotic. I mean yeah, it was COMPLETELY surreal to see Fernando at the wrong end of the game. He was looking extremely lost at Chelsea, that's cause the hostility emanating from Liverpool players in extreme. Even Stevie G, he was courteous and all to most players, but I don't think there was any sign of contact from either of them. Sadly. Hey you guys, he was still a Reds! He has brought Liverpool to big heights, and made Liverpool a big name. We should be proud of him, despite of all the pain and heartbreak and madness he had caused in his transfer to Chelsea. Though I understand, ANY OTHER CLUB would have been alright, why Chelsea?? Never mind. He will do great there. Yesterday, he could HARDLY keep the ball on his feet, Liverpool centrebacks were being cautious. Haha. But hey, Fernando Torres has been listed as the 10th best striker, with 142 appearances AND 81 goals. He is still amazing.
Now, LIVERPOOL IS BACK! They were fantastic! They played fantastic strategy, with good agression(and I meant literally too, oh Agger) and that class of a goal from Meireles. Sweet. And we didn't need Torres this time. Or even Suarez! I shall save my breathe on the ranting on Rodriguez though... WE COULD HAVE SCORED TWO GOALS! Never mind. But fantastic, fantastic Liverpool. You heard our plea. Thank you.:)
Now all the way forward! Ahahaah.. Top six, their best, sweet victory guys, sweet victory. And to you people who gave up on Liverpool and walked out of them... THINK AGAIN.
Regret! haha.
And you people, STOP, for god's sake picking on Torres. The guy's destined for great things, I know.\

Genius on form.:) Raul Meireles!

Liverpool's prized gem, hands OFF, Real Madrid!

Kenny Daglish is AMAZING. Steven Gerrard is WONDERFUL. Raul Meireles is EXPLOSIVE. Daniel Agger is RADIOACTIVE. Jamie Carragher was SOARING. Fernando Torres was left in regret.

Can You Hear Me Say, Don't Blow Me Away..

And it's about to begin. In a few hours time.
The clash no one had ever expected till last Monday. Oh well, gotta be strong.
He will do great.
He will be respected.
He will be loved no matter what.
Cause he's amazing, just the way he is.:)
We never had the right to condemn him and his choice, his explanation came up good.
There's a reason why God gave us free-will.
C'mon baby, show us, just how much you rock!
But, Liverpool, I send my prayers to you.
Please don't let us down. Please.
It is the plea echoing from every Liverpool die-hard around the world.

It's Written In The Stars, So I Lose Faith.

If only it was real. Magical. 

Like when twirled upon, the colour of wind comes to life.

Butterflies constantly taking flight.

The star dazzles even when eyes closed.

Presented upon with bouquets of roses.

Each day was beautiful with a touch so tender, it melts.

In hopes it's mine, I get to keep it like the most precious of gems.

A princess's fairytale.

With sweetness up to a degree, it brings upon tears.

A guardian. A warrior. Out of the ordinary.

If only I was that lucky.

But it's impossible.

Because it's not the right one.

I want to believe, but it's all degraded.

I tell myself it's not possible, no way.

A fantasy lost in depths of reality.

The magic of my fabled Summerland destroyed, when I open my eyes.

I don't know whether I should trust you anymore.

Because I'm wishing for a miracle. An impossible miracle.

You will never be like them.

Like who I want you to be.

You never understood it.

You had a different definition.

And with that, my faith in you is fading.

He Insists He Would Have Been Happy To Stay Had No One Come In For Him.

Sam Tsui is just brilliant alongside his producer Kurt. This is a completely amazing song, especially for those of us who wants to start again.:)

How To Sleep When I Can't Sleep?

Insomnia is attacking my life. Gah. It's not fair. I can't sleep on occasional nights, and I don't know why!  And it's been occuring a little too frequently these days. Could it be that I'm stressed up, getting myself a little too depressed, and not taking things lighter? Oh well. Either way I really want to apologise to Prawn: I'm so sorry, for keeping you awake, especially yesterday when you were so tired and what with the throbbing headache, I'm so sorry! But you were the one insisting so. I told you to shut it and sleep. Anyway thank you so much, you were a great companion for a number of times. So Sorry.:) Oh, and yes, the person is worth caring for, Prawn.

INSOMNIA.=)

Most adults have experienced insomnia or sleeplessness at one time or another in their lives. An estimated 30%-50% of the general population are affected by insomnia, and 10% have chronic insomnia.

Insomnia is a symptom, not a stand-alone diagnosis or a disease. By definition, insomnia is "difficulty initiating or maintaining sleep, or both" or the perception of poor quality sleep. Insomnia may therefore be due to inadequate quality or quantity of sleep. Insomnia is not defined by a specific number of hours of sleep that one gets, since individuals vary widely in their sleep needs and practices. Although most of us know what insomnia is and how we feel and perform after one or more sleepless nights, few seek medical advice. Many people remain unaware of the behavioral and medical options available to treat insomnia.

Insomnia is generally classified based on the duration of the problem. Not everyone agrees on one definition, but generally:

• symptoms lasting less than one week are classified as transient insomnia,
  
• symptoms between one to three weeks are classified as short-term insomnia, and
  
• those longer than three weeks are classified as chronic insomnia.

Insomnia affects all age groups. Among adults, insomnia affects women more often than men. The incidence tends to increase with age. It is typically more common in people in lower socioeconomic (income) groups, chronic alcoholics, and mental health patients. Stress most commonly triggers short-term or acute insomnia. If you do not address your insomnia, however, it may develop into chronic insomnia.Some surveys have shown that 30% to 35% of Americans reported difficulty falling asleep during the previous year and about 10% reported problems with long standing insomnia. There also seems to be an association between depression, anxiety, and insomnia. Although the nature of this association is unknown, people with depression or anxiety were significantly more likely to develop insomnia.

Ahhh.

See, I Believed In You, Torres.

And this is the real Fernando Torres. MY Fernando Torres. The humble great guy. He was never to be blamed in the first place. He was confused. Lost. And he knew what he should do. He knew he should leave because of the out of form. And despite him saying he's not afraid to score against Liverpool, HE SAID HE WOULD NEVER CELEBRATE IF HE FINDS THE NET. This is the real, pure, wonderful him I have always idolised and loved. I can't believe I'm crying again. I love you, Nando. We are all gonna miss you at Anfield, but thank God you are not out of sight.

Torres explains Chelsea defection

Fernando Torres revealed he made up his mind to leave Liverpool midway through the January transfer window.

Torres was officially unveiled at his new club's Cobham training base after completing his record-breaking £50million move from Liverpool on transfer deadline day.

Chelsea saw a bid rejected for Torres four days before the end of the window but the striker had decided "10-12 days before the transfer window closed" that his future lay away from Anfield.

And he admitted he knew Chelsea would be his destination as soon as the clubs began talks.

"As soon as I knew that Liverpool and Chelsea were talking about that, I told them that the decision was made," he said.

"I was the first one to go to the manager and tell them."

Some Liverpool fans were seen burning Torres replica shirts when news of his £50million transfer became known, but the player said: "I can't say anything bad about (Liverpool supporters) because they made me feel really good. I understand they will be angry. I would like to explain to them all the reasons."

Hinting his discontent dated back to the departure of other key players such as Xabi Alonso and Javier Mascherano, he said: "I was a Liverpool fan. When some of the players left the club, I couldn't understand. They did the best for themselves and their families and their careers."

Torres' commitment to the cause at Liverpool had been criticised this season but he said: "I never lost my ambition.

"Too many people are talking about that - that's just opinions.

"I was playing out of form for a month.I was not just playing there for six months, but for three-and-a-half years, and I always tried to help the club move forward.' 

The 26-year-old shrugged off the pressure of his price tag, a record fee between British clubs.

"I have been in this situation before when I signed for Liverpool - big money, big expectation, so this is not new," he said.

"I'm more than ready for the challenge."

He insisted he had a good relationship with new Anfield boss Kenny Dalglish.

"I didn't talk with him when I left the club," he said.

"I had a good relationship with him for the three weeks he was the coach."

Torres' first game is set to be against Liverpool on Sunday. Having said earlier this week he would like to score against his former club, he revealed he would not celebrate if he found the net.

"I have big, big respect for Liverpool fans so I don't think so," he said.

He added of the prospect of facing his former team-mates: "It's going to be a strange situation for me.

"I left in Liverpool a lot of friends. I have a very good relationship with all of them."

A few had been filmed burning replica Torres shirts when his departure began to look inevitable and he attempted to placate the disenchanted today when he said: 'I only have good things to say about the Liverpool people and the supporters especially.

'I had a great three-and-a-half years there. They made me feel really good there.

'I will never say anything bad about that club, that city.

'I understand they will be angry and won't understand my decision. "I'm sure in a few days, weeks, I will explain all the reasons.'

Torres is looking forward to linking up with Didier Drogba and Nicolas Anelka.

"It's a big, big challenge," he said.

"When we played against Chelsea, we were very worried about both of them."

You Dream, I Dream.

I am more of a... globalised person. LOL. I don't think it sounds right. Oh well.=)
I love to see and experience various cultures, I love holidays overseas! There are just so many different things to observe and learn, with different cultures, races, and traditions. I have learnt ALOT from sports, especially those major ones like football, tennis and Formula One. They have matches and races and tournaments in different countries and we get to learn their cultures and have an insight to their countries. For instance, the World Cup 2010 in Africa. Before the event, I never gave much thought about the country, and I assumed it was just some country with poor background and poverty is a part of life there. I know, I'm DEAD wrong. The continent has so many colours to it in terms of tradition, cultures and people, and everything was actually so beautiful. In fact, Cape Town is one of the most beautiful and amazing tourist destination in the world. Every year, when I watch all those  major tennis events and F1 races, I am deeply attracted to the west part of Europe through tournaments like French Open, Wimbledon in tennis, and races in Silverstone, Britain, Spa-Francorchamp, Belgium, Monza, Italy, Monte Carlo, France and Hoffenheim or Nurburgring Germany, and etc.It has ALWAYS been my dream to travel to those places, there's just so much of history within those grounds, in London, Paris, Milan, Florence, Berlin, Madrid..
 If there's two of my favourite countries to date, it has to be London AND Spain. London, is like my worshiping ground.:) I WILL be there in my near future. Spain, is an obsession. HAHA. In most sports, I absolutely revere them Spaniards, namely Rafael Nadal, Fernando Verdasco, and Fernando Torres. Oh, and David Villa, Jorge Lorenzo, Sergio Ramos. But I NEVER liked Fernando Alonso. He has attitude problem:)
In World Cup, my two favs are England AND Spain. England was mostly because of childhood favourite, Spain, the real love=) And despite England's unjustified defeat, I was completely THRILLED when Spain won. The irony of mixed emotions. In fact in the finals, I hardly slept, and stayed awake all the way to watch it at 2am. Throughout the nerve-wrecking match, thanks to the dirty play by those Hollanders, I was praying Fernando Torres would come out quick, I just had a feeling he was all the luck Spain needed! And I was
right, as usual.:) And I am so deeply into this Spanish culture obsessions, than I actually listen to Spanish songs. Hey, they are quite good! And I know a view Spanish vocabulary, and am eager to expand it. Bueno, no?=) And I believe I have a counterpart, Fiqah Sahar, who indulges in Spanish as much as I do. HAHA.
And I have made, penpals, I suppose from other countries through sports. Two good examples would be Juz Vinluan from Philippines, whom I came across through our mutual obsession of Richard Herrera of the amazing race asia. We were delirious when it came to him! I tell you, the ecstasy when The Riches won, was beyond exhilaration. And it was so nice, when she actually made effort to learn some Bahasa words! And then there's Maria Gyulbekian, whom I share mutual obsession of Fernando Verdasco, Rafael Nadal, and Fernando Torres. They are extremely nice people and I feel absolutely blessed to get to know them. Facebook enhances globalisation, I get to learn alot. Thank you, Facebook.:)
And during Chinese New Year, Hari Raya and Christmas, it's just feels so great to be a part of another races' celebration. That's one reason why Malaysia is absolutely great. It provides us with chances to learnt about new cultures even those which are foreign to us. It's all great! So that is pretty much my dream, as long as I live, I so want to learn about new cultures, countries, go around the world, see new things and LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST. Sadly in our Taylors A-Levels programme I have yet to meet international students. It would be so cool to meet and make friends with one.
The world is such an amazingly beautiful place, sadly not many of us appreciates it the way it should.
We have people who are completely absorbed in studies, to achieve their life goal of graduating and being successful, they forget to look at those simply enthralling stars in the night sky.
We have them who hunger for money, they cursed the rain when it disrupts their schedule and plans, they never saw the beauty held within every single drop.
And we see those who are so engrossed with video games and the virtual world, they have never stopped to see the beauty of nature, how every different flowers have different meaning when it is given to someone special.
And those who see love mostly as lust, physical attractions and whatnot, they were so blinded, the real magic of true love is left undefined.
Sad it is, how in their quest for fame, power, MONEY, entertainment, alot of people never ever stop to observe minor details in this world, look at things out of the ordinary and enjoy life with more love, real laughs, and honesty, integrity.
Time to open our eyes, before modernisation kills everything, including our ability to think.:)

A white Christmas, perhaps?

The most romantic getaway.:D Je'taime, Paris!

The flowers that held so much of meaning within it's petals, Ah, Amsterdam.

The cherry blossom in Japan is totally fantastic.

Madrid, the capital of Matador country.:)

Anfield, Liverpool.:)

The Colloseum, a dream to dwell.

When nature comes to light.

How flowers are the most beautiful thing to be offered.

Beautiful personalities comes to light, in sports, in terms of variety. In this case, there's no boundaries holding the Spaniard, the English and the Portuguese from celebrating victory at it's best.:)

C'mon people, be creative, see life as a form of art, we choose the colours and the strokes, the paintbrushes, and materials, we choose which one to frame and which one to dispose.:)

Happy Chinese New Year, EVERYONE!:)

On this WONDERFUL day, I would like to wish everyone A VERY HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
May prosperity bestowed upon you and your family and enjoy every moment because they do not last.:)
And Lai Siew Ern, missing you!:) Have a great time, and don't forget me.=)

Such a BEAUTIFUL day, Luis Suarez scored on his debut, Meireles proves WHY we don't need Torres.
Awwh man, I was searching for a certain No.9 who is the most amazing man on planet Earth to me, but apparently he's missing. That spot he left can never be replaced.=(
Andy Caroll was warming up the benches with hot steam though.:)

Had only 3 hours of sleep till now, but oh well. My day went well. I think.

Luis Suarez, our new hero? Time will tell.

I just HAD to. I had to remind myself how much the guy had meant to me. Can't believe he was missing today.

And it's official. Fernando Torres, the Blues num 9.

I Could Give Up, I Could Stay Stuck, or I Could Move On

I had no idea that expressing my feelings through words to ease my burden could ever cause so much uproar!
Seriously I never meant those words to hurt anyone, because I wasn't wanting to sent those words like a dagger or whatever. No sign of war intended, I come in peace.:)
Hell, how the hell would I know my blog would be read in the first place?
But really, take some time and think. Why am I hurt? There must be a reason. I'm pretty sensitive, and it's hard enough to take things lightly. That's pretty much the reason why I'm very alert about things. I know what happens around me, without word. My sixth sense, you know?
And sixth sense, moral values and intelligence(haha!) taught me, I'm not in the wrong footing.
Though people are sending ideas that I AM at the wrong end.
Oh well.
You know why? Cause I'm all alone.
One person can't change the world, no?
Ahhhh.
As if my life isn't bad enough with all that Torres's drama.
Okay, okay. I'm already hurting enough. But I suppose it's too much to expect to come and make everything right. It always has to be me, no? It shows how awesome I am. HAHA.
SO VERY SORRY IF A MERE BLOGPOST HAS CAUSED SO MUCH OF COMPLICATIONS. Apa saya mau buat, kehidupanku agak menyedihkan.:)
I'm just saying what I feel larh. Take it or leave it. No defaming here.
All I'm saying now is sorry. Doesn't matter if my broken smile is ever fixed. haha. Who cares anyway?
Oh and PRAWN, HOW COULD YOU?! Yes I'm jealous, no need to rub it in.=P Wait for the day, crazy, when I get to rub it in your face.=PPP
Vinodini Thiagarajan, you are an awesome friend! You see me like no one else ever did! Ahaha. Love you, darling.:) I finally made you realise the real meaning of true love, for Fernando Torres. Ah, the power of words. HAHA.
I'm still breaking down over it. It's hard. Why, Nando, why?=(
On the bright side: Rafael Nadal will be back to tennis in 10 days. And Lewis Hamilton, the most amazing guy, haha, is back on race track. They are using the old car and yet they could score 5th place,how cool is that? LOVES.
Fernando Verdasco, I miss you. (Astro is so cool, for the sports ad in what are we to expect in year 2011, they showed Nando(as in Verdasco not Torres, jeesh similiar nicknames are so confusing) in claycourt and ENDED the ad with him winning Barcelona Open! I was jumping on the couch and screaming, my bro looked at me like I delusional. Sorry.

So I put one foot front of the other, 
No no no nothing's gonna break my stride, 
I keep climbing, gonna keep fighting until I make it to the other side of down .:)

I Can't Tell You What It Really Is, I Can Only Tell You What It Feels Like

And it feels... So heartbreaking. Really it is. He left for Chelsea, the day before, and yet it hasn't completely sunk in. I suppose it only will when I see him in blue.=( I still don't understand why did he do it. His every action and words to the press is so un-Torreslike. I used to believe he's the purest form of footballer the world has ever seen, the best in this era. No scandals, beautiful story of a man from Madrid, working tirelessly to scale greater heights, and his respect for Liverpool has always been unrivaled to others. But what happened? I suspect blackmails and whispering words from irresponsible parties. Is it possible? Because I think I KNOW who the real Torres is. Even if he desires a move away from Liverpool, he wouldn't be so cold towards the team. He wouldn't forget the fans. We, the ever-loyal fans, who have always believed in him, even during those torrid times he went through trying to regain his form. But all that doesn't matter now, I suppose.

He's very happy now, isn't he?

Torres told Chelsea`s official website: "I am very happy with my transfer to Chelsea and I am looking forward very much to helping my new team-mates this season and for many years to come."

Oh, yes he is. Very in fact.

Whatever happened to this?:

He said: "My commitment and loyalty to the club(Liverpool) and to the fans is the same as it was on my first day when I signed. I am looking forward to the challenge ahead."

He had said this statement on the 3rd of August, when even then Chelsea expressed their interest in him. Where is this Torres?

Even this?

"Our target is just winning games. We will see what happens in the next game because we need to start getting three points in every game.

This is the real Torres. The Torres who had stucked with Liverpool during their down moments, who gives everything within his power to propel them forward.

Not this Fernando Torres. It's feels like I hardly knew him.

"It is like the destiny," Torres said. "It is not perfect for me but we will see what happens and I only have good words about Liverpool. They made me a top player and gave me the chance to play at the top level. I will never say anything bad...

Destiny? Like Pathma had said: YOU CHOSE IT. Your destiny had been with Liverpool, because that was how your story in Madrid was. Playing for Liverpool was something you never anticipated, you know that Torres. That was the club that  made him famous, the club that on his first and second season with had made him the best striker in the world. But now that you're with Chelsea, you are not seeing it. No, he's not. He says he won't say any word against that club, but where's the gratitude, El Nino? Where's the thanks, the appreciation to your teammates who believed and trusted you, to us fans, who no matter what, worshiped you like god. And Kenny Daglish, he wanted to help you regain your magic. You snubbed everything. You want a club which has capability in winning silverwares. Sliverwares are no measure to greatness, honey..

If only you were like Luis Suarez:

"Hello everyone. As you guys know from the Press, my transfer to Liverpool is now official. I want to thank Ajax for those wonderful 3 years and a half I spent in Amsterdam, where I've been so happy and [proud] to wear and defend Ajax colours," he wrote on his official website.

We felt betrayed. Sad. Well at least I do. I can't stand it, most die hards Liverpools fans couldnt either. Torres was so synonym to Liverpool and our devotion. He let us down. Beverlea was on tears went she found out it was official. I cried the moment you expressed your intentions in leaving.It wouldnt have mattered much if he had left on a good term, but what's with the Chelsea is in a whole different level?? That left Liverpool fans in rage. Yeah, they were oh-so-EXTREMELY mad, that they burned his jerseys and his memories. He didn't have to leave in such fashion. What happened to you, Torres? You are not our Fernando Torres! I mean, even during the time Cristiano Ronaldo left, he left with a sombre atmosphere, yes, but no hatred there, no. Remember those young fans, holding your Liverpool posters, idolising you at all times, looking at you with great admiration and love? You broke that hope, Nando. Mine too. I waas devastated, because this is a Red's nightmare.

I always thought you were the BEST thing Liverpool has ever had. The ideal duo, Steven Gerrard and Fernando Torres. Now it's just a bitter memory. Oh c'mon, Torres and DROGBA?! That is ONE hell of a scary combination.

Torres, why the HELL can't you see that being with Chelsea is only gonna sink you? You are kinda entering the Lion's den. Drogba and Anelka. Lampard's okay though, my English hero. You are meant to be in Red always. Can't you see? Spain.RED. Athletico Madrid.RED. Liverpool. THE REDS. Aaaah. Blue is gonna look HORRIBLE on you, love! 

I'm wishing you had done a Fabregas. He, yes the great Cesc Fabregas of Arsenal, snubbed a transfer to the best club in the world, Barcelona. Hell Torres, he was here way earlier then you ever had! I don't understand. Rather than wanting to play for some team who you will never be at home at, why don't you work on being the best player in the world? Kenny Daglish had put it right: One player cannot be bigger than the club itself. 

You have enraged the entire Liverpool fans, you have maddened me, the Liverpool fan since nine years of age, but you know what?

I still love you.:( Yes, I am still crazy over Fernando Torres, because a person like him comes only once in a blue in a blue moon. You have brought so many fans together made others feel envy of us, Liverpool-ians, you always gave us a reason to say your name. Remember Torres, once a red, always a red. Things will NEVER be the same for you in Chelsea, cause you know that Liverpool is just THAT awesome. But you have my love.:) Like you say, If you have the magic to dream, you can be anything you wanna be. Go ahead, Nando, chase that dream you so wanted. Most Liverpool fans hates you for leaving us like this, I am too, but hey, life goes on, and I still believe in you. Love you so much, Nando.

Meanwhile, Luis Suarez and Andy Carroll, welcome to Anfield! C'mon, shows us how much you rock, guys!XD
Luis Suarez:

"I am starting a new adventure now with a very important club. I want to thank them for the strong effort they've done to count on me. I am going to work hard day by day to give them back the trust they have in me. Thank you everybody. C'mon Liverpool."

AND....

"Liverpool is a very famous club, the most famous club in England, and I watched Liverpool and English football as a boy," he said. "It's a dream to be able to come and play here. I had a wonderful time in Ajax and I will miss them, but that's football."
AND....
Andy Carroll:

"I'll bring as much as I can to the team - I'll score goals, create chances, hold up the ball and just try my best really.

"They have spent a lot of money on getting me here and I just want to repay them for what they have spent.

"I'll do my best and think I can do it. I want to win trophies with this club and help push us forward."

Good for you guys!

Oh well. Will love you still Torres.:(

A moment that will always be missed.:(

( My god, is it my trend or something to be dedicating posts to my fallen Spanish warriors? This is the third one. Not good. Because they ain't good news.)