Look, I'm Still Around.

So I'm the one IGNORING you larh now?
Okay, this is so depressing, man.
Hello, like I intended? NO WAY!
YOU gotta understand college is taking up most of my time. No, scratch that, this past week has been SO VERY busy, Australia Open 2nd week, NANDO LOST, NADAL INJURED, Both lost out in 6-4, 6-3, 6-2.
Then when I thought at least I have Torres to rejoice about, HE BRINGS MY ENTIRE WORLD DOWN.
The biggest BOMB I have had for ages.
And KKK, it's so nice to see them back in the semis, but that tame loss was...ugh.
But the saddest part was Datuk Lee Chong Wei.
Don't EVER try to challenge my words about Lin Dan's sportsmanship. Cause it really SUCKS. Come on, an illiterate could see that. Hello? Being a Malaysian and you rejoice in the defeat of our hero, you are definitely sick in the head. Because my world revolves AROUND sports. I can tell you what real sportsmanship is like. You must be blind to say Lin Dan is a true champ, cause honey, silverwares are not the measure for greatness. I learnt that from Nadal, Verdasco, kkk, lcw, and especially Lewis Hamilton taught me that. So, OPEN YOUR EYES.:)

Torres changed his CLUB, and I wanna change my CLASS oh-so-BADLY.

Don't get me wrong, but I LOVE my classmates.

But I feel UNCOMFORTABLE.

And it's sad when she doesn't know how to appreciate a close friend you have known longer then those new ones. It's not all about laughters and fun, but she doesn't realise that. That got me so heartbroken today. I'm upset. I want REAL friends. And apparently they couldn't be there in person. I have to rely on text messages. Awwww. You meet new friends, you act so LOA, you want to be the reigning core, and you left out someone who actually cares for you. It's so embarassing when you save place for your friends, and they bail out on you, and when they ask you to join them, even that not so spiritedly, you do, but you are pushed to the back, ignore cause girl, you think you're cooler than me.:) Those people I hardly know, are way nicer. I'm like a breathing wall, or what did he say that day? Oh right, living fossil. HAHA. Boy, you sure have a way with words.:) Back to earth, yeah, I'm upset, cause I was the one who helped to break the ice, and now I'M LEFT FROZEN IN THE ICE. Oh well. It's up to them. Up to her.

If only you could see. Well, look, I'm still around! I want people who would acknowledge me and believe as I do. Siew Ern and Ama, no one beats you guys. Prawn, thanks for being the virtual companion.:D AH, MY LIFE IN PM12.... Sucks. Hell, I didn't even have a company over lunch! LOL! They KNEW after all I'm having lunch alone. Sandra AND Rishi offered company, I say, it's okay, go AHEAD.

On the bright side:

LIBRARY UNCLE remembers MEEEEE! HAHA. Met him twice today, he remembers! Must be because my due date is on Valentines. HAHA. I'm thrilled.:)

Oh, and Guard Uncle thinks my name is so beautiful! HAHAHA. Awesome. Yeah, it is! He hasn't heard of Deena Verdasco, that's even more Beautiful.=) Funny how these lil things make THE only nicest part of my day.=)

All I Want To Do Is Lie Next To You And Gaze Up At My Diamonds, The Stars.

Just one more day till HOLIDAY! Ahhh, the impatience. It's greeat that I'm in college at all, but at the same time, it's not ALL THAT GREAT. Pressure! Exhaustion! Homework! Lecture-trauma! MENTAL. TORTURE.
And Prawn gets to sit home everyday in his enjoyable rut making me jealous constantly, Ama is probably enjoying life as it goes, Mai is venturing every part of Malaysia or so it seems, Sonia seems to be content with sitting at home (still, get well soon, darling), Fiqah is basking AND crying over Andy Murray's consecutive entry into Grand Slam finals AND his defeat to Nole, and I'm... whining every single day about WHY I don't WANT to go college anymore. I dunno how the others cope with it, but Rachel seemed positive over college everyday, Wei Wei looks like she's in LOVE and my, her hyperness and how happy she is in college annoys me really, Vino is alright with everything and I don't think she has much emotions in her to showcase the pressure, but Elaine might feel a little pessimistic about college just like me. It doesn't help much that my Bio lecturer is a Man Of Fear, or so says Jovan, AND my Moral lecturer is getting on my NERVES. Seriously, aside the fact that he beats around the bush over and over, everything that he says doesn't makes the least DAMN SENSE. And I seriously don't get WHAT THE HELL is he instigating. Giving the choice, I wouldn't even enter the damn class. The class only tries to what, brainwash us to the negative way of thinking! So much for MORAL education. The man's polluting the mind of young people like us. I think me and Ray would wanna mostly move into Islamic Studies class. THAT sounds interesting. I'm still trying to find my way through college, I need more timeee. I know I WILL get use to it, but the question is, WHEN? God, be with me. Make me stronger. But I'm feeling tons of times better than how I had felt last week. Thank you, God. But mostly, all those heart-wrenching defeats, Nando, Rafa, KKK, Datuk, had made me feel stronger. It was painful yes, but it serves a good point on how I should see life. Torres's problem in transfer has also made me see the new light in life. Life is not all fun and games, sometimes, it's all about sacrifice if we want to hit the sky. I believe in that.=) And Prawn has done brilliantly to keep me sane everyday with HIS insanity, haha, thank you for that too. You're one heck of an awesome genius! God, never thought I would say that. But hey, that's the truth, that's what I believe. Now, holidays... HURRY UP. I need my beauty sleep, I need my comfort, I need more TIME. And Im SO looking forward to see my darlings this hols! Ama, quick, get serious with your gathering plan already!:DDD Miss you so much!=) ONE MORE DAY.. ONE MORE DAY..ONE MORE DAY...

And Fernando Torres, Te Quiero, para siempre.:DDDD You will do great, honey!:)

Let Me Tell You One Time

This post is dedicated to Ms Chiew Wei Thong only cause she thinks I'm abandoning her. HAHA.

Don't worry honey, you should know that The Best Thing About Me Is You.:)

I'm Stuck At The Moment with college, but You'll Always Be In My Heart.

I'll always Pray for you and your well-being, and despite my craziness over my boys,

 I think you are amazing Just The Way You Are, cause your every word is like a Firework.:)

Justin Bieber. Remember?XD

Happy Chinese New Year, you! 

Collecting Your Jar Of Hearts

There's MANY reason, possibly a million, on WHY FERNANDO TORRES SHOULD NOT LEAVE LIVERPOOL.

 But the main reason is of course: ME. (Or more like people like me, for that matters.)

Please, Nando, remember us who always cared.:(

Desperate, desperate Chelsea.

This is oh-so-heartbreaking. The haters meanwhile, are having a heyday rejoicing. Why should that satisfaction be given? Anywhere but Chelsea, Nando. You won't  survive there. You might regret. Ahh.

What am I to do with all those merchandises I have of you? It's all Red-is-Fernando-Torres's-colour-and-he's definitely-from-Liverpool-like-duh stuffs.:( Nando in blue is like imagining red oceans or green puppies. If you ever moved to Chelsea, I have to like the colour blue, pulak!

If I Had You, Adam Lambert:)

You have been and will always be the great artist loved by many and most importantly, ME. Thank you, for filling those lonely nights or bad days with your amazing voice resonating in me:) The awesome, happy-go-lucky man who wouldn't give a damn to haters who love to condemn. May you go further than ever, and we Glamberts will ALWAYS love you.:)

New ALBUM, New ALBUM! Can't wait.:)

HAPPY 29TH, ADAM!

You Tell Me It's Not Possible, No Way That We Could Break..

It seems that you don't seem to want to have anything to do with me. It's not you alone, though. I know another who's the same. She blocked me, and possibly some others to be with someone she love. Jeesh, look what love does. All I have now is painful memories. Ugh. But I never thought YOU would do the same. You said you would kill me if I forget you, but hello, isn't that exactly what you are doing? All those unreplied whatevers and can't you hear the plea? No apparently not. Guess it's too much to be expected of you. And you're in a new environment, more friends, and probably someone way BETTER than me. Anyway, you're sick, I know, so.. Get well soon. Chinese New Years approaching, never the right time to be ill.

Ugh, the past week has cost me a lot of tears.Why? Hopefully the following week isn't the same.

Falling Stars

When you forget me
When you don’t remember my name
Not even a memory
Somewhere in the back of your brain
I won’t be offended
‘Cause I always knew that the day
Would come when I’m not enough to make you stay
You tell me it’s not possible, no way that we could break
But nothing is illogical, believe me

Like falling stars over your head
We were bound to burn out, burn like crashing cars
I’ll never get over you, never over you
‘Cause you are so beautiful, yeah

The world is turning
And time keeps on lingering on
The sun will be burning
Eventually you will be gone

I’ll always love you
Oh, believe it or not
Baby, that’s not enough to
Not enough to stop these…

Falling stars over your head
We were bound to burn out, burn like crashing cars
I’ll never get over you, never over you
‘Cause you are so beautiful, yeah

When it’s all said and done
I’ll be just a speck in the galaxy
Floating far far away by gravity
You tell me it’s not possible
No way that we could break

Like falling stars
Like crashing cars
Like falling stars over your head
We were bound to burn out just like crashing cars
I’ll never get over you, never over you
‘Cause you are so beautiful
You are so beautiful, yeah
David Archuleta has come up with an awesomely beautiful song.:)

Serendipity Where It Hurts

Still reeling over the saddest defeats:

Rafael Nadal and Fernando Verdasco.

Both LOST out in the Australia Open.

Both was defeated with the same results: 6-4, 6-2, 6-3.

Both sustained LEG injury.

But I believe BOTH gonna rule the clay court season this year. Vamos!:)

Silver Lining after A Storm.

I started the day, EMO-ING. I couldn't get over Rafa's defeat and his tears. I wanted something to happen so badly, so that I would have a reason NOT to go to college. My thoughts were all Rafa, and I was feeling weak and discourage. I could hardly smile? I'm sorry, Chris.:) I was broken, upset, disappointed, blah, blah blah I think I better stop. Those feelings I suppose are hard to put into words. But my devotion and love of him has rooted a little too hard.:)

But I was wrong, wrong about thinking the day would go terribly. Because I think it wasn't THAT bad. Now that we are settling comfortably in Pre-Medical 12, everything seems quite fun, actually! Though some of my classmates scares me by taking studies a little too seriously. But I do know that we ALL share a traumatised hatred towards Biology. I think those are nice people we have in PM12, Shaun Ng who I must say is reaaallly smart AND awesome, Brandon Lim who, well, thinks he's cute? haha. the poor thing keeps getting bullied by Wei, Brandon Loo who's way too serious I suppose, haha, Tiger, she's reaally nice! Jovan likes clowning around, Kai Ren's really good in Thinking Skills, a subject unfortunately I have began to dislike, and etc... I really am too tired to discuss the nature or value or whatever of my classmates.

Apart from the funny antics of my classmates, we had some club recruitment drive in Taylor's. Well, not bad this people go all out to bring success. I meanwhile, was plain bored AND tired. Elaine was going crazay and apparently I was stucked with her. Then again, Vincent was worst. haha!
And I came back, Nadal's memory hitting the back of my head, and I know I swore I WON'T bother with Australia Open cause Nadal and Verdasco have decided to go for holidays:D, I still went and watched the Roger-Novak game. AND YOU KNOW WHAT? Roger Federer LOST. I was shocked but hands down, Novak was awesome! Congrats, Nole! Ana Ivanovic was there, Ana Ivanovic was there, ANA IVANOVIC WAS THERE!:)

And did I mention that Liverpool WON, even with Torres's goal WRONGLY disallowed, they are BACK.=) And so is, STEVIE G! Welcome back, honey, we missed you.:) Oh, and Koo Kien Keat and Tan Boon Heong, they FINALLY made the quarters, even though they struggled. I'M SO PROUD OF YOU GUYS! haha.

And you, yes you! Thanks for keeping me sane everyday, ESPECIALLY yesterday. Thanks for being there when I needed most. Thanks for being in my life.:)

THE WEEKENDS COMING! I'm raving. Ahh. I need more MORE sanity.

Believe in yourself, Rafa as I do, because Te queiro, we are ALWAYS behind you, great man.:)

The Fall of An Amazing Champion: He WILL Come Back Stronger.:)

Alas, the thing I dreaded the most coming to this week has finally happen. When I saw it, I just broke down. I couldn't stand seeing Nadal looking like a defeated man. From the first moment he entered Rod Laver Arena, there was something visibly missing from his aura. That moment his face broadcasted some serious vulnerability, a very un-Nadalish expression. I knew something was wrong. I in fact have been watching Nadal's game since the first round and now the quarters, and I can tell Nadal was simply not in the game just now. And it just broke me to see him so in pain! He looked so young and lost, and so fragile.

It's funny how, I have faced terrible defeats of Nando Verdasco, Liverpool, Koo Kien Keat in the past three weeks, and none of their defeats have affected me in such manner. I CRIED. I just couldn't stop those freaking tears! It might sound childish but I realised Nadal has influenced just to much of me. Because he was phenomenal throughout the tournament. As far as my analysis go, he had the best game apart from Andy Murray, both of them were in stunning form. And then INJURY, the old enemy came and tore the dream of a first ever 'Rafa Slam'. I just can't stand this. It's so.. heartbreaking and I feel just besides myself right now. Not because I've lost my bet on someone whom I thought could take the title, but of how sad and upset and disappointed and terrible he looked during the game. I knew even David Ferrer couldn't help but notice the pain Nadal felt, and something in him tried to reach out to his close friend. He's a nice guy David Ferrer is, other than him  pushing Verdasco off as the Spaniard number 2, I actually like him, the small guy. Now get yourself together, Deena Verdasco, everything is merely a blessing in disguise. Nadal will be alright. He always will be.

Rafael Nadal Parera is an INCREDIBLE champion. He has done wonders that has left the world astounded with, and brought in comparisons with the great Roger Federer himself. But the even beautiful thing is, Nadal does it his way. He is so unique, and just amazing in many ways, that brings the world a true champion. The wonderful thing about him is he is just SO humble, despite all that fame, and being number one. I mean, how many World No.1's have you encounter, saying that I will always be behind Roger Federer, the current World No.2? All the other World No.1's I have seen in various sports says:" I deserve to be the World No.1." He, Rafael Nadal has always paid tribute to everything Roger has done, despite him having beaten Roger 14-8 times. And on court, he respects his opponents, regardless of junior, qualifiers or veterans. He showcases amazing sportsmanship, that I believe is unrivaled to any other in the world currently.

Rafael Nadal has ever created any riffs with his opponents that has damaged his reputation. And YET I STILL CANNOT BELIEVE WHY ARE THERE HATERS.
Like seriously, what on earth has he EVER done to fuel this upsurging hatred on certain individuals? Those insults directed at him are normally from Federer fans. I think that is simply ridiculous, seeing as how much Nadal reveres Roger, and has always voiced his support behind the greatest man in tennis. Nadal is currently the last teenager to ever beat a world no.1 who was Roger Federer of course, and that shows his fearless determination and hardwork to achieve success. In fact Nadal isn't a person who had wanted to become a tennis star from the moment he was born. It was a random decision of his to enter tennis and he never gave up. At twelve he was a young tennis player who was also a promising football talent, but he chose one road, that brought him to great heights. Haters never understood the real value of Rafael Nadal, his believe and the real him. Because they never was a reason to hate him, to begin with. He is a man who deserved be revered, and even if you are a Roger fan, it doesn't hurt to pay him respect because that what Roger does. He has done incredibly in his life and he has never said never. He was just that awesome. A true champion. Haters out there, YOU think YOU'RE better than him? Prove it. Don't just talk, show the world. Because THAT is EXACTLY what Rafa has done in 2010 when doubters questioned his credibility in continuing his best tennis as he was torn by injury in 2009. Not many people has won 9 Grand Slams, achieving all four in the age of 25. That is Rafael Nadal, the youngest to achieve such victories in the Open era. I believe that ROGER Federer AND RAFAEL Nadal are both incredible athletes and haters are merely wasting their time building that hatred block against them. Rafael Nadal has proved you haters wrong, because he has done many things HIS WAY. He is just amazing, just the way he is.=) And I believe the stars are listening to my wishes, because the dream my heart makes, to see my two wonderful idols having a wonderful year ahead. I know they will. YOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE MY DEVOTION AND LOVE, Rafa. Always.:)

My Fallen Warrior: Who Is Awesome Just The Way He Is

And he lost. Nando a.k.a Fer a.k.a FeVer a.k.a Fernando Verdasco Carmona a.k.a love of my life and just one of the greatest guy on planet earth (forgive me for the exaggeration) has been defeated. He held strongly producing miracle after miracle along the way until my fallen warrior was defeated in the hands of a giant who comes in the name of Tomas Berdych, who has a tendency to obscure my boys' lives. And for that I hate you, Tomas! But all credits to Berdych, he has done phenomenally this two years, awesome guy, he is. Jeesh, I'm sucha sore loser. But that's not fair! I've been chanting Fer's name over and over for the last few days(because I knew he didn't have much time in the tournament,strong faith I have=) ) but it's all over now. How pathetic. Then again, the fact that Verdasco has made it this far is a miracle itself. He has been given the worst possible draw, and after that horrendous start to the year in Brisbane followed by the Kooyong International, I never expected him to make this far. So, kudos to this amazing guy.:) I mean COME ON. They couldn't have been a more shiteous draw for him. First round, Rainer Schuelter(or something like that), then Janko Tipseravic and then Kei Nishikori NOW Tomas Berdych! Are you kidding me? Whereas Nadal faced Bernard Tomic, Ryan Sweeting, people whom we have NEVER heard of. Ahh.Then again, it's okay. Defeat teaches us alot, AND I believe Nando will come back stronger. He always does.:)
Is it a tradition or something, when one Nando does well and another falls. Cause, Fernando Torres was BRILLIANT yesterday. Yes he was, yes he was.:) A brace from him with awesome finishes, amazing! Liverpool trashed Wolves just like how King Kenny wanted. I was ecstatic! Fernando Torres, you amazing guy! Raul Meireles really did an awesome job stepping into Gerrard shoes, he was fantastic:)
And I'm gonna keep to that thought, the resurgence of Liverpool and the revitalised Torres in my mind when I brace tomorrow.

I was very much upset of Nando's defeat, but it's a tradition when you enter a competition. Just like in life. And despite of what people may say, he always has been brilliant. I find the attitude of some people annoyingly sick. When these guys are winning, they will be worshipping him like he's so freaking awesome and everything, but the moment he loses, "Stupid lar him, don't know how to play." Like the hell? You THINK you can do everything what he has achieved? Not everyone can do what these players have. If they are stupid, doesn't that makes you even MORE dumber CAUSE hello, you ain't even there! Joker, you. So get a life, and stop giving insults at the wrong place. Ironically, it comes from someone who barely knows how to hold the racquet properly. Beautiful. These guys deserve all the praises and credits and reverence because the had worked for all the right reason, or else they wouldn't have made the papers. I don't mind rivalry insults, like when a Man Utd fan throws insults at Liverpool fans, it's completely understandable. But LALANGS? Especially when they insult Koo Kien Keat Tan Boon Heong due to their losing streak. You don't have to be a Malaysian if all you know is to be with them during their glory moments and throw them out when the lose.:S

It's okay, Fer, you have done amazingly. I knew though that pink shirt is SO not for you=) Better luck next time. Now, it's ALL in Rafael Nadal's hand, my numero uno. Vamos, querido, we believe in you.:)

   My angel, My fallen warrior, My love, My Idol:)