It's Such A Funny Thing, How Nothing's Funny When It's You

I'm feeling terribly tired these days, and I don't know why. And emoing is official part of my resume. Hahah. Bad, bad! Waiting for the hols so I can detox myself(yeah, detox, haha! Emo is poisonous.:)) And exams, next week! Panic! Breathes deeply. I am dying. Hahah. Drama trauma. Seriously, I'm too relax at one time, and the next I'm fretting over things like it's the end of the world. Oh well. Keep Calm and Smile.
And and and I won't be blogging much I suppose for these two weeks. EXAMS! Assasinate me, if I do. Please and thank you.:)
The weekends was adrenaline-filled.
Verdasco lost, again. No surprise there. BUT, I was so so so expecting him to meet Rafael Nadal in the next round, which is going on as I type! That is criminal, he deprived me of my dream match! I will break up with him soon. SOON.
Good luck, Rafa!
And Monaco Grand Prix was the most dramatic race I've EVER SEEN. Lewis Hamilton had a bad qualifying, so he started behind, and it didn't help that the circuit is too tight for overtakings, but you can't get this guy to NOT try it, right? So yeah. But unluckily for him, there were too many crashes! Still when he overtook Michael Schumacher, the commentator was raving at how amazing it was, and it was the best they've seen in years. And I don't deny it. He was stunning, And then came Massa, blocking him. They kept dueling the entire way, and CRASH. Massa crashed out. But you know what was the irony, just minutes ago I was cursing Massa who happened to be my youngest bro's fav, because he's suchaa big Ferrari fan, I told him frustratingly, "Ugh. Massa to crash, Lewis to escape." I simply made that stupid prediction because I was so mad! And surprise surprise, it happened EXACTLY what I said. Massa crashed BADLY, Lewis escaped narrowly. My bro was flabbergasted.:) From that point onwards I realised, whoever tried to fight off Lewis from overtaking them ended up crashing out of the race. In fact, a guy had to be brought to the hospital, yet not that it was Lewis fault, cause he crashed after Lew overtook him. Perhaps he was too distraught he got outwitted by a masterclass act. HAHA.
And finally, Barcelona. Amazing, amazing, beyond fantastic. It was pure class. They slayed Manchester United, in a game that was lopsided, the champs were unbeatable. Manchester looked bleak, no answer for Barca's defence and attack. And Lionel Messi, he SO deserved the credit. FANTASTIC! So was Pedro, Villa and the rest, and I must say, Xavi. Most hardworking guy on pitch, and he was the man behind those three goals. Congrats.=) And David Villa's goal, happened to be the BEST of the night. Worth those hours I stayed awake.:)
That's it for now, will be back in... Sometime soon, hopefully.
Lesson of the day: It doesn't matter what spiteful things others have to say about you, just believe in yourself. Know your strength, love yourself, because if others have something to say about you, you know you are special. But do know that you have to be in the right track, mistakes can be forgiven but known sins are the worst. If people don't like you for who you are, and try to bring you down, just smile and erase them.

Say whatever you want, but it's no secret that I smarter than you, I'm way talented than you, and I am capable of so many things you couldn't. I'm happy being me, take it or leave it. You might flaunt that confidence in people's face, but it's what make you look ridiculous. Because others know you are stupid but you try to conceal it. An epic failure, they said.:)

I miss Richard Hardin and Richard Herrera. I remember those Thursdays I used to have, screaming and jumping, just for them. Richard Herrera especially. He inspires me in so many ways, I used to think, I want to be just like him. A perfectionist in many ways, he's also courteous, calm, cool, a really nice person, and a determination like no other. He's really amazing. My inspiration.:)

You Said You Was King, You Lied Through Your Teeth.

It's really hard to find genuinely nice people in the world these days. Sadly, it's true. People have evolved, and threw the real definition of civilisation, out of the window. And even more tragic, is the fact, that teenagers and children these days, well I sort of agree to what the elders would say, they are becoming more uncivilised.
Alright, you may disagree with me, but it's time to face it, people. But still, I don't say all of us are a bunch of useless uncivilised fools, some are. They just don't see what they live for.
They don't look at the world, and appreciate it's beauty.
They don't make the effort to bring a smile upon another's face.
They come up with hurtful words that breaks a person.
They are conceited, vain and all they care is about themselves.
Worst, are the fakers. All their pretenses. Lies. And you think I can't look past those facades?
Stop living a fake life. Stop hurting others, and look at what they do for you, appreciate it. She cried at night, a broken mess, to what you did to her, and you don't care? Some things may seem a joke, but look at the consequences. Those aren't white lies you thrive in. Those are lies of your life. She cared for you, she gave her everything, and you leave her broken with that simple line. No, you wouldn't know what it's like.
Nobody's not worth it. Each to her or his own, they are original, can never be replaced. Each are special in their own way. Hell, the currently famous line, " You're beautiful in your way, cause God makes no mistakes."
So who are you to judge, when you're not a even a diamond in the rough, but a sickening liar. A heartbreaker. An unnecessary liability to the world. Stop thinking your strides are worth the world, you are just a disaster to those who have met you. A regret.
Why is it so hard to be nice?
Why is it so damn hard to act like a friend? You don't appreciate. You never do.
But seriously, do people get away just like that by being mean, and hurtful? I hope not.
Always, ALWAYS be nice. And care for those who care for you. Don't regret it when they are gone.
Funny, it was me who stood by you all those times you had a hard time, it was me who cared. But you will never see. You, you and you. Wow, there's a pile-up. All those people I loved and trusted and cared for. All are nothing but backstabbers. You will regret.
BE NICE. CREATE SMILES.
How would you feel if you were the reason someone had a sleepless night, someone had to fake a smile to hide those tears?
But you will never see.

My theme song of the day, and somehow I suspect it's gonna stay for the week:
BLACK AND YELLOW.
HAHAHA!
Thanks to Brian Teoh. That guy got it STUCK in my head!
"Everything I do, I do it BIG."
Ahhh I loveeee my friends! Friday was hilarious in the bus. And crazay. But what's even MORE crazy is the theory about the origins of AIDS which in a way is simply disgusting. Conclusion: It is not from Chimpanzees.
Pirates was amaaaaazing. However boring the storyline is, you watch it, for Captain Jack Sparrow.:) But someone else caught my eyes. Philip Swift a.k.a Sam Claflin. He was.... oh well, I will get to see him more in Snow White next year.:) As a prince!
Rafael Nadal crushes someguyGodknowswho and thank god for that. Pray for him.
Lewis had the WORST qualifying ever but he's gonna prove why oh why he's too hot to handle.
Fernando's next. AHHHHH HE'S AGAINST IVAN LJUBICIC I GUY HE HAS PROBLEM BEATING. Please pretty please let this be alright, I SO wanna see him against Rafael next round!
And the epic match: Man Utd vs Barcelona. At this point, I'm willing to give anything and EVERYTHING for Barcelona. Please dear God, my pride and everything I hold upon is at stake. Yes, on a game, but it's THAT serious.

"No I realised you are not worth me wasting my time on." You forgot everything, didn't you? Who cared when you had a hard time with your grandmother's death? I thought I did. Or did you lie about that too? Who cared for you every effing single day? Who did her best to act like a real friend? All I ask was for a company during my darkest hours. Who cared about your welfare, about your studies, about your work, about your family? It was all my fault. You prefer everything that is wrong. You've changed, or you revealed your true self. But why? 

I've Got My Eyes Wide Open, I've Been Keeping My Hopes Unbroken.

The world, is a funny funny place. Weird to the power of infinity.
Everything is either completely random, or predictable.
Either everything falls into place, or everything goes completely wrong. 

Definition of Undying Love: My Love For Rafael Nadal.=)

It's only 8.30, I'm starting this post, and dayummm I'm half-dead. God save me.
Anyway, yesterday, yours truly here saw a shooting star. No, I am NOT kidding. I'm practically 18, I wouldn't come up with something far-fetched unless it's true. And the shooting star, IS REAL. Bona-fide. Sadly, I don't think anyone would actually believe me. Except for Chris and Vince, and I think Prawn did too. Or maybe not. No, he did. I think. Thanks guys. Hahah. But I SWEAR, it was reaaaal. And believe me or not, it doesn't matter. I just felt really extremely lucky and blessed. I was just stargazing last night, as usual. At about 9.30. And yesterday, the sky was heavenly. There were so many many stars, all strewn over the black skies like like.. DIAMONDS! Ahhh I was swooning over them and suddenly a star moved. LOL. I thought it was a firework at first. But it was stupid. And I thought it might be a plane. THAT was even more irrational. If a plane flies in that arc, the people in it would have died out of cardiac arrest. Hahah. It is bona-fide Shooting Star! Anyway, it doesn't matter.
So yeah, that was the bizzarely amazing thing yesterday. Today.... Lunch with The Bus-ers. Me, Brian, Bryan, Chia, Chris, Kenneth, Rahu, Victor and Vincent. And it's one of the most awesomest lunch outing to date. LOL. Vincent was apparently mad at Bryan Ong because he slept on his shoulders in the bus this morning. I was right behind them, and I remember Bryan asking Vincent if he could lie on his shoulders. Vincent said, NO! But Bryan still ended up on his shoulders. LOL!From and ordinary lunch date, we made it into Bola Kopitiam. Hahah. The debate was mostly between Eu Jian and Brian la. But me and Vince was involved as well. And this nutcase Brian finished his 'free" food so fast, and he was practically screaming in my ears. And that obscene things they did in the corridors. OhmygoshhowIwishthattimeIdidn'tknowthem.
I'm a lost soul in career department, so STOP ASKING WHAT I PLAN TO DO!
My boys are heating up the court now, and it's so freaking scary! Holding my heart in my hands! I'm being dramaaaatic. But who wouldn't when... when when Rafael Nadal just lost the 2nd set in the 1st round and struggling in the 3rd? Boy, you give me a heart-attack. And I'm not expecting the best from Nando either. Juan Monaco, I tell you! If I could wish upon a shootingstar now, it would be, save my boys from defeats. No sweat in that.
Tomorrow is the day, I die. So, you hear from me here first, don't be surprise.
Love, Deena Verdasco.

P.S-Congratulations Justin Bieber. You are awesome. Amaaaazing. 6 Billboards title. But most of all.... I wanna wish beyond congratulations to the artist who have ALWAYS kept me sane at my darkest or saddest hours.

Dear Eminem, 
You are amazingly awesome, and you so totally deserve the Top Artist title alongside the other 5 titles, cause you are too amazing for words. And you ALWAYS get the words right. Love youuu.

Drool-worthy.:)

Let's Be Marie Antoinette And Count Fersen, At Least For Tonight.

Lewis Carl Davidson Hamilton, HAS ALWAYS MADE ME PROUD, BUT TODAY, I'm ECSTATIC. Baby, baby, baby! You were AMAAAAZING, baby! For someone with a notsogoodcar to hold onto the race leader who has an outofthisworld car, and finishing the race with less than a second behind(yes, only 0.6 of a second!) HE IS PHENOMENAL. You want to know the true nature of a fighter, a man who never says never? Lewis Hamilton is the role model. He fought like a Spartacus on a Roman battlefield. My ultimate inspiration. YOU ARE AMAZING.

P.S-Happy Happy Happy Eighteenth, Vino! Officially legal now? Whatever that means. Hahah.

P.P.S-I'm gonna miss Wanieyyyyy Johari SO MUCH! Good Luck, Waniey. And Maysara. And I hope the other one, A, is no longer mad at me, for no reason.

JRandall, You Are Amazingly Hot!

Give Me Everything is making me feel super-highhhhhhh.=D

Lewis Hamilton is one hell of a badass dude, just like Nando. Love you, baby.=)

Guardian Angel? Hahahaha! What the hell lah! I feel SO ANGELIC. Weeeeeee, I'm an angel! XD From Goddess to Angel. What's next, Fairy?=D We let our imaginations run WILD.

You, With Your Switching Sides, And Your Walk-By Lies And Your Humiliation

Thank you God for Justin Drew Bieber.=)

I'm sorry if I've been a little cold to some of you guys lately, I'm just rebelling against the world. Hahah. Nevertheless, don't worry, I'm perfectly sane. I'm too amazing to lose it right now, because, if you see it as I see you see it the right way.:)
Being confident, doesn't hurt at all. Not a single bit. In fact, it's the best drug you wanna take with you at all times. It's something you can shove up the faces of those who seem dead-set in breaking your strides, ruining your day.

Too many people exist to break you, and play with your emotions. Do you honestly think I'm a toy? Well then, go ahead, do it as always, break more people, and I say, you are looking at a future of hell. You will pay for all your lies, games, jokes, which you think is funny but it never is. To destroy a person's dream? You are gonna have someone doing the same to you, soon. You suck. I mean come on, I feel sorry for those who trust you. You have done too many things, your past is contaminated with lies, and you think you're gonna survive with your lies? Don't worry, and all the times, I'll sit here and smile and watch as your world crumbles. And if you remember I'm here...
Blah Blah Blah.
It's the WEEKENDS! I should be celebrating? I am. Just chilling out and forgetting the week. It's a brand new one next week. Ahhh but then again, every F1 weekend, is an exciting weekend. It's like the adrenaline rush surging through the entire world from the circuit. And this week, Barcelona babyy! I am so completely excited, because.. I get to watch it and my brothers don't. How exciting, right?=)
Why on Earth is Rafael Nadal Parrera starting his French Open defence with John Isner?? Bad omen. BAD OMEN. I wonder what Fernando Verdasco's got. Oh boy, I think you might die. I still love you.:)
Haley got Reinharted out of America Idol this week. Like I care. Stupid la. The finals, is gonna be BORING. Completely. Just that, I'm SO watching the results show, come on AI, give us a James Durbin solo or a James-Steven Tyler duet!
I've got a new vision but I don't know how to pick my fallen self up.
Life still sucks.
But we shouldn't care so much. Just smile, nod, observe.
Don't forget to smile. Don't forget to breathe. Don't forget to feel. Don't forget to believe.
Just keep holding on.
I can't believe that I'm missing out on Johnny Amazing Depp just for my brothers. They want to watch with me, but but but it means that, I can't watch it till... Their exams are over. Which is next week. Jack Sparrow, wait for me!

I miss these moments.

This too. Torres and Kaka, one of the world's best. I'm not gonna believe that's it's no more though. We gotta BELIEVE.

Ahh, you don't care. Not anymore.
Taoism's Golden Rule: Do not do to others what you don't want other's to do to you.:)

He, whose smile melts me, lights up the whole town, makes the whole world stop and stare forever, and brings me to another planet. Please, pretty please, I want to see this smile, back on that Greek God's face again. A genuine one. 

Deenahaustionaphagia.

Historical day! No more Moral Education in my life, AS OF TODAY. It's a celebration! I don't know how I did it, I MIGHT have screwed it, or maybe not, but who cares, screw it. Hahah. Got wet in the rain, badly, and probably on the verge of dying. I don't know whether it's exhaustion or pathogens attacking my system, but I really do feel like passing out. But don't worry, I'm strong. I think.
It's gonna be a busy busy week next week. Oh yeah, French Open! Rafael Nadal! No matter what happens, everyone knows that French Open, is Nadal's title. He might lend it to someone this year, but ONLY for this year. He will come back, he always does. You will always, be, my, number, one. Always.
Speak of the devil and he's on my homepage. Ohmygosh guess what? He has been named as one of the hundred most powerful celebrties! I'm so proud! Wait, proud, is an understatement. Ecstatic!
And my baby Lewis Hamilton, I missed you so dammmmmn much and am looking forward to see yaaaa!
I'm sleeeeeeeepy. I think I'm dying, Ahhhhh, One more day of school, and WEEKENDS!
Just ONE. MORE. DAY.
I need a getaway. ASAP. I'm already losing my mind! I used to have someone keeping me sane, but looks as if those days are gone. I'm gonna be eighteen soon, is that why? Or is it because I left school? Who knows. I miss so many things in my life, I wish I could go back. Rectify mistakes. Create more opportunities. Undo what I've done.
I miss you so very much, but looks like you've walk out of everything we have ever shared. It's been like what, years? You left years ago, but I still think of you. And yet here am I, missing you and the things we shared. I miss making up stories, creating dreams, building hope, believing and keeping faith. I can't believe you walk out of all that. I miss those days when it was just me and you doing this silly things. Hahah. Silly but special, stupid but real. That was what went missing when I was in High School. I missed it. If I can't throw everything away, I would.
I can fix all this lies, ah baby baby running you.

Dancing Slowly In An Empty Room, Can The Lonely Take The Place Of You?

I should be studying Moral now, no? Don't worry, unlike Chemistry, I will study. Morals finals tomorrow! I'm currently hacking into Chia's portal and stealing his Moral notes. Just kidding. We are sharing notes, of course! But he doesn't want mine. Apparently mine's the equivalent of a Sejarah textbook. It's SO not fair their teacher provided them with easytoread slides! Oh well. Thanks, Chia!
Today was kinda blahh. But at least I laughed. Those little things enough to make my day.=) Weng Ming made history by being the first person to go to the toilet during Mr Rajah's class. Even that after he ended his last sentence. Trust me, Ng Weng Ming, is a MAD guy. He was so freakin' determined to listen to Mr Rajah's lecture till the end and was willingly holding on, while Wei Wei's loud giggle caught Mr Rajah's attention, ohgosh. And Jovan, he sure is crazay. He loves bullying Mr Rajah. I think I screwed my Thinking Skills 3rd question. I had NO IDEA what to write! What the hell, I COMPLETELY screwed Chem today. I am absolutely sure it's gonna be below 20%. Oh dies. Physics as usual tak paham satu benda pun. I changed my phone's wallpaper today, and I feel like that's the biggest achievement of the day.:D It's currently sporting.... James Durbin, the BEST idol contestant EVER. I'm in a serene mood. And you don't get that from me all the time these days.
Ng Weng Ming, don't leave laaaa! You and Wee Minn. It's gonna be killing when you do. Vincent Loo and Bryan Ong, our(Chris and mine's) gay best friends! Vincent is the PERFECT gay buddy, he's like the PhD holder to Bryan's amateur status. LOL. Ahhh those4 people, I love you guys! And Lai Siew Ern, YOU TOO. Babi, you're suchaa outdated nuthead. C'mon, you HAVE to catch Chris Hemsworth's Thor! He is so so freaaaaaking hot! Godlike. Hahah.

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart 
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start 

You put your arms around me 
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go 
You put your arms around me and I'm home :)

You put your arms around me, and I'm home.:)

Enrique Iglesias Comes Before Adam Lambert. I Think.

I'm so screwed for tomorrow's Chemistry test. And then there's the Moral finals the next day. And then there's driving test, looming like a formidable figure, I'm so doomed. Ahh what the hell lah. I'm chilled.
No, I'm dead. I dug my own grave. Ahhhh my paradoxical life. The only thing missing is... Armageddon. The end of the world. Which I doubt is not much longer.

I just wanna be myself, 
And I want you to love me for who I am. 
I just wanna be myself, 
And I want you to know, I am my hair.